Crapy mood

I am totaly in a crapy mood right now. I cant see any of my friends from school, I'm pondering what to do if I cant make it in the music program and I have to transfer out of UNT, I cant ever get morgan to email me back anymore. Just a shity time. I wonder what ever happend to her.

I went to vickie's tonight with my dad cuz he was installing a dish washer for them. I she was doing good, but because we didn't get over there until 7pm she left after about 30min to go to temple. So I just sat around some more until my dad finished.

I'm not looking forward to this trip. I know it will probably turn out fun, but I just wish I could of had some more time to sit at home and do nothing for a while. I guess I have vented enough for one night.

Finaly home

I moved home for vacation yesterday. It was weird moving alot of my stuff out because it still feels like I haven't been there very long. I suppose thats because in college, things are always changing so you cant really get sunk into a set pattern, unlike highschool where everything is always the same. I said good bye to some of my friends and just tried not to think about coming back. It was raining the whole time we were loading the truck and with a drumset in the back of a pick up truck, it was very hurrysum business. We had to put a tarp over everything in the back.

The New Orleans trip starts tomorrow. I cant really tell if I'm excited or not. I want to go because I'll probably never get to again, but at the same time I'd really like to stay home and just do nothing. Or at least go hang out with my friends or something. Oh well, at least I have a chance of being on tv on tuesday, ESPN2.

I wonder what ever happend to Morgan. The last time she emailed me was weeks ago. I suppose she is just busy with school work and trying to make a relationship happen. I just dont want our friendship to drift apart.

I've started to download all the Jim Brickman songs in my piano books so I can hear what they sound like. It helps to know so I can fill in the parts that I can't play.

I found out that I didn't make the school of music. They can all suck my cock. If they would have told me that I was only gonna play a solo and not waist my time on those damn books, then I would have done better. They can all suck it sideways.

Easy day

Today was a tireing day. I was up till 4am, then slept for 2 hours, typed a paper for my enghish exam, slept for 2 more hours, went to english and turned in the porfolio, then came back and hung out with Venessa for a while. We just hung out in her room and chilled.

I kept meaning to take a nap or something, but it never happend. I just found things to do and procrastinated as much as possible. I went to the cup tonight for the finals breakfast. Since Marcy and Karina were talking away with people I didn't care to know, I made my own friends. I met this cool girl named Britney. Shes a jr and lives over in morzart but is moving to santa fae soon. I hope I'll see her around sometime.

I have an exam at 8am this morning for Music Fundimentals. It should be pretty easy, so I haven't needed to study much. Tomorrow should be a better day because I will have had more sleep time.

Only 3 days till New Orleans!!!!

Brenna's back

Me and Vennessa went heard about free food out side the library tonight so we decided to go check it out. While we were standing in line Brenna and her roommate came over :) It was really good to see Brenna again. We let them cut in line infront of us and we all sat and talked for a while. Me and Brenna talked mostly about what we had been up to lately. I'm gonna call her tomorrow and get her email address so we can stay in touch over the break. I was just thinking about her today too, kinda weird how she was just there.

Anywayz, me and vennessa are probably in for another long night. Who knows, I'll probably pull an all nighter but I'll be by my self because ven said she has 2 exams tomorrow. At least I'll try and keep her up as long as I can.