late night thought

Ok, ever wonder how things get so bad with certain people. For example, at what point in my life did me and desiree deside to stop talking and utterly hate each other? Probably when i puplicaly humiliated her infront of about 30 people who knew her in the lobby with a song i wrote about her. Anyway, it was just a thought.

ok i got nothing...except a song

Well, I was suppose to go see a sneak preview of Tx Chainsaw Massacure tonight, but for some reason the film never made it to denton. So, we waited in line for 3 hours for nothing. The only thing we did get was a $5 gift cirtificate thats not even enough to pay for 1 movie. We ended up seeing Matchstick Men which was pretty cool, but I had used my ONE free miss in band today in order to see TX Chainsaw Massacure. They said they would show it tomorrow, but Im not going back there again. I cant waist 2 nights in a row.

I thought of a new song I can play for Bruce Jam this year. Instead of playing short people like I've done every time, I'll play Its Not Easy Being Green. Its a song that Kermit the Frog sang on the mummets a long time ago. I think alot of people will recognize it, and its cute so maybe it will help me with "the ladies"...well more like...the one certain lady...if i can ever get her out there to see me. Here are the lyrics.

It's not that easy bein' green
Having to spend each day the color of the leaves
When I think it could be nicer being red or yellow or gold
Or something much more colorful like that

It's not easy bein' green
It seems you blend in with so many other ordinary things
And people tend to pass you over 'cause you're
Not standing out like flashy sparkles in the water
Or stars in the sky


But green's the color of Spring
And green can be cool and friendly-like
And green can be big like an ocean
Or important like a mountain
Or tall like a tree

When green is all there is to be
It could make you wonder why
But why wonder, why wonder?
I am green and it'll do fine
It's beautiful!
And I think it's what I want to be

Fine....heres an update

Ok i promised my self Id never use this thing again, but here I am at 2:45am at Crumleys front desk working. Man, where to start.

Well, my parents are finaly going to get a divorce thank god. My mom said shed sign the papers soon. I got to go see my first Metallica concert over the summer and it was everything I hoped it would be :) Im now the treasurer at Bruce and I must give Katie props on the signs. They are quiet amazing. This is also my last semester in marching band...THANK GOD!!! But wouldn't you know, as soon as I want out, someone gets in that I know I'll miss. Oh well, if things work out I'll be seeing more of them later on ;)

Like I said earlier, Im working in Crumley right now. Just a reminder to anyone who is reading this, this is where Desiree lives. She passed by the desk a few times and ofcourse paid no attention to me in which i returned the favor. She seems to be spending alot of time over in Bruce lately so i figured I could spend some time over here too. Just to try and get at her. Why do most of these entrys end up being about girls?? Its kinda weird being over here again. I've pretty much avoided this place as much as possible the last few weeks, but things just have a way of working out. Im not use to being here at the desk with out her here at least a little bit. I dont know, to have her walk by still brings up old pains. Son asked me today if Desi asked me back would i go for it, of course I said no. But if i was drunk and she just wanted to make out...who knows. After all, she could kiss, she just wasn't good at other stuff.

Well, i believe thats all. I may update this again, I may not. But I guess I better make a motto for this semester again. Lets see...I guess this semesters motto is, "Nothing Else Matters."

Election

Well, the election is over with now...finally. And turns out I won. I wish I could say I was exctatic to hear that I won, but in all honesty, I was more...i dont know...uneasy with it. Ive know what its like to work for something for hours on end and still not have it be good enough. I know thats how katy feels right about now. I lost the election last year to Bill by only 7 votes...7! And I was running against a guy who had been here for a few years. I just got lucky and was picked for RHA Rep. I know that Katy talks trash about BHA to everyone she knows, even to the RAs, so maybe thats why she couldn't gather the votes she needed to win. If you talk bad about a group of people so much, then try to run for it, what does that say?

Sometimes I stop and think about how things got so bad between me and her. I suppose if she had actualy asked me what happend last summer things might not have been to bad. Of course, I did sleep with one of her best friends... But about the RHA spot for the year that just happend, Ive heard I wasn't even the first choise. I dont really know how I got put on there, I just was. Its not like I ran against anyone for it, it just happend.

And hey, everyone knows that an election of this kind is all a popularity contest. Its all about how many people you know. I knew more people. Ive seen unqualified people get elected to certain offices not because they were better than the other, but because they knew more people. Now im not saying shes better than me, im just making that point.

But anywayz, back to my origianal point... I guess I just feel for Katy and all the crap I put her through over the last week. Its all part of the game ofcourse, but if anyone is reading this, I didn't intinialy run against katy or anything just to spite her. I didn't even know she was running until I saw her first sign. And shes the best sign maker Ive ever seen! Good lord, I wish I had art talent like that. If she still hates me next year, so be it. I cant change how shes gonna feel about me or anyone else. I just wish things weren't so shity between us anymore. Im tired of it.