Song For Dad

This is a song writen by a country singer named Keith Urban. He is pretty cool. The song is called Song for Dad and if you know anything about MY father, you'll understand why I actualy laughed out loud when i heard this today. Here are the lyrics.

Lately I've been noticing
I say the same things he used to say
And I even find myself acting the very same way
I tap my fingers on the table
To the rhythm in my soul
And I jingle the car keys
When I'm ready to go
When I look in the mirror
He's right there in my eyes
Starin' back at me and I realize

The older I get
The more I can see
How much he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
A little more of my father in me

There were times I thought he was bein'
Just a little bit hard on me
But now I understand he was makin' me
Become the man he knew that I could be
In everything he ever did
He always did with love
And I'm proud today to say I'm his son
When somebody says I hope I get to meet your dad
I just smile and say you already have

He's in my eyes
My heart, my soul
My hands, my pride
And when I feel alone

And I think I can't go on
I hear him sayin' "Son you'll be alright"
Everything's gonna be alright"
Yes it is

A little more of my father in me
I hope everyday I see in me
In me
In me
I hope everyday I see
A little more of my father in me


So yea that song is always good for a laugh :)

alrighty...lets go

I went to TRHA this weekend. It was really fun. Met a bunch of new people, mostly girls :) Got 3 emails from them and danced the Nsync dance for the whole place with Derek. It was SO cool.

Turns out Im not going to go see kayla this week and I didn't get to see stacy on sunday like i wanted to either. So, my plans for this week are pretty much shot. I guess I'll just stay up here all week until we go to San Antonio on Friday if we still go. My moms car broke down, so we'll see if we can get it fixed on time.

Desi, what ever you do, be safe and be smart about it.

Kayla, ok im sorry i said that, i shouldn't have used those exact words. But i still dont think you should allow this to happen.

Haven't talked to Leslie in forever. I wonder if she knows im still here...

Alrighty, i guess thats it for now.

WTF happend to me

this world is a twisted, fucked up place. Why is it that everything before 2003 was easy and everything after is hard?? At what point did life become this roller coaster of ups and downs. Is it Desi? Is it my father? What the fuck happend to me last year that I cant seem to stay happy for more than a week with out hitting one of these lows Its like every week I just want to go away and forget everything. Then I'll be happy again, but then I'll be super depressed again in a few days. Its like a cycle that never ends and just seems to spiral out of control sometimes...........is there ever an end............is there ever a moment when I'll be truely happy again? But when was the last time i was "truely happy?" Was it last semester before i got fired? When i still had stephanie and ashley wanting to hang out with me? If so, why is my happiness determind by others? Why is it since desi broke up with me i cant fall asleep most nights with out holding on to something? What the fuck happend to me and why cant i be happy for more than a few hours or few days at a time?

Cheers

Heres to catching up with old friends and making new ones. I hope the future brings brighter days for all of us.