No Internet and an uncertain future

Well, its Sunday afternoon and my internet is down. I'll have to just write this now and upload it when the service comes back online. I feel good about having this diary again. I think it helps sometimes to have something to write all of your thoughts down in, even if nobody reads it.

Last night I saw most of Bridget Jones Diary. Its funny because at the end her love interest reads her diary and gets upset about what's in it. It reminded me of my old livejournal diary and how many times it got me into trouble with whoever was reading. Over all it was a cute movie and I'm glad that Hue Grant finally didn't get the girl in the end. I never really liked him. We had the sequel there too, but they decided to wait until later to watch.

I really hate my Charter Communications right now. Yes we get really fast internet, but every two weeks or so it randomly cuts off for like a day or two. They should get their shit together. Before it went down I was able t o change around my photo page a little bit. Added some new pictures and changed the lay out. Son said he would send me more so that I can post those up too. If my connection was working I would have done it last night...GRR!! Oh well, until then I can keep my self occupied with video games and music I suppose. I tried to write a song in Finale earlier but it didn't work. I've only written one song in there in my entire life and it took like a week of having no internet or TV or phone. I've realized you never have nothing to keep you occupied, you just have to find new things.

I guess that's what I'll be doing this summer. With Angelica being gone, possibly really gone this time, and with the friends all gone home, I'm not quite sure what I'll be able to do. Ya I'll take a few summer classes, hopefully meet some new people, make some new friends, but it wont be the same any more. Son isn't coming back to Bruce next semester so looks like I get to grow up this summer and learn to deal with what adults have to deal with. aka...being alone and finding ways to keep your self happy with out relying on other people. That has become increasingly harder to do with Angelica here now. Sometimes when I think about the summer and next year I think I can find a way to be happy with out her, and other times I don't know what I'm gonna do with out her. I know she's coming back to UNT next year, so she will be here, but will she be here for me anymore? I'm not sure what to do over the break, do I allow us to see other people and take the risk of loosing her for good to someone else or do I try to make it work? I've got a few weeks to decide so I'll think about it some more and then decide. I do love her and I do want to stay with her longer because she makes me happy....most of the time lol.

Well I guess I've rambled on enough for one entry. I'll check back in soon.

Bowling, a new cd, and horray for hackers

Last night I went out bowling with Son and Joseph. I won the second game and Son won the rest of them. It was really awesome though because I ended up beating Joseph by a single pin in the third game. Afterwards, we went to Wing Zone and got 20 wings. After I got back, Angelica wanted me to go hang out with her, Hunter, and Kim in Kim's room so I did. I ended up just staying there for the night. I also got to carry on my yearly tradition by telling my April Fool's joke to Kim. So goes another exciting April Fools Day :)

Today, Son just transferred me the new Initial D Fourth Stage Soundtrack, so bad ass. In City of Heroes news, they put the arena back online in the test server. First battle I fought a three person free for all and won!! I was going against two blasters and it really wasn't a challenge. The next battle I teamed up with a blaster from my supergroup and we fought against another blaster/tank combo. We won 6 kills to 4. It is definitely fun to play against other heroes instead of playing the computer all the time.

All this is now being created with the Office 2003 version of FrontPage now. I happened to have...uh..."found it" online 2 days ago :) Don't even ask where I got it from. Anyways, I think its a little better organized and easier to find things. I also enjoy the new blue skin look. It's very sleek.

Here we go again

This is my first post in what will be probably the fourth time I've started up a journal online. Every journal I have ever had online have all ended the same way....unfinished because of a girl. The first time I had a live journal, it ended because the girls father was reading what I was saying. The second time it ended, I had been broken up with by my now ex girl friend and lost interest in it because I didn't want to be reminded of her. Third time was because the new girls father along with her father's spy, was reading it and reporting back. Not to mention all the numerous times I pissed people off and it came back to bite me in the ass. So here we go, my own personal journal that very few people will know about. This link is not in my aim name, which is new so her father wont know about it. This link is not on thefacebook, which he is also aware of. In fact, I'm not to sure how many people I even want to know about this AT ALL.

So what's on my mind right now, well I just got into a fight with Angelica because she feels we have been spending to much time together. She's probably right, but she did just last week try to hook up with someone else over me, so can she really blame me for wanting to be a little controlling?? Yea so what if I have issues about trust, so do a lot of people. I can only do the best I can and if that's not good enough then I'm sorry.

Well, that's about it for now. We'll see how this all goes.

Well, today I lost another girlfriend. And again, it was followed by a period of being away from each other. Only this time, instead of christmas break, it was me being out sick for a week with pnemonia. She says she likes someone else. So since her family was the reason i stoped typing in here to start with I can finaly say FUCK ALL YOU DENTON BIBLE PEOPLE!! You made my life miserable on more than one occasion.