No Answers, Just Questions

Every day I look around and I see a lot of pain in people. I see girls who have been used, lied to, walked on, cheated on, taken advantage of. They sit there every day alone in their rooms and cry and nobody hears them. I see guys who only know how to treat a girl like an object, a trophy. They are from families who either had a father who wouldn't/couldn't teach their sons properly or never had a father to begin with. They walk around all day thinking that if they just find that one girl who will do what they want, they will be happy. And the most frustrating part is I can't do anything to help any of them.

Every person has been hurt or had their heart broken and just can't seem to put it all together again. Maybe thats just life, but maybe there's more to it. I mean, did our parents go through stuff like this? Something in me wants to say that things weren't quite this bad when they were our age. Nobody tells the truth anymore about anything. Guys lie to get the girl in bed and girls do the same thing in return out of spite. Maybe this is what men get for all the years of keeping women under our thumbs for so many centuries. Girls sleep with every boy who will drop his pants for them because they think that if I have with him then maybe he will love me like i want. The girls think that they have been able to detach the emotional connection from sex and they are so wrong. I see it every time I talk to those girls that their hearts are broken and bruised and they have no idea how to fix it so they keep going back to more and more guys.

I dont understand this world anymore. I think the bible calls it a "dark and dying world" and Im starting to believe it. Where are the christian role models that we so desperately need today? Why can't they get it through their minds that all they do is turn people away and make it even worse for all of us? Stop protesting out side abortion clinics! Stop putting signs of dead babies on my campus! Stop going into my coffee shop trying to convert "the sinners." You ARE SINNER TOO! "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God." Do you stop to think about that before you run in to convert us? In the eyes of God we are all equal so you are just as "bad" as they are. Just because someone looks different than you doesn't make them a moral delinquent fools.

So how do we fix this? I dont know. One person at a time I guess. Matt Chandler, my pastor, always tells us, "I dont have any answers, just questions. But together we'll try to find them."

They Dont Really Care About Us

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
trepidation, speculation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
black man, black mail
Throw your brother in jail

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Tell me what has become of my rights
Am I invisible because you ignore me?
Your proclamation promised me free liberty, now
I'm tired of bein' the victim of shame
They're throwing me in a class with a bad name
I can't believe this is the land from which I came
You know I do really hate to say it
The government don't wanna see
But if Roosevelt was livin'
He wouldn't let this be, no, no

Ya know.

Ya know, Im really pissed off right now. not because of the roommate situation but because of something else. I can't get this girl out of my head and its all her best friends fault! Fuck! Not to mention my BRAND NEW scooter's chain came off tonight so I had to call her to take me home from the party............AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! God is totally playing games with me right now. What a bitch.

Hours

I've had 2 hours of sleep and I am very pissed off...thanks Travis. I appreciate it you fucking asshole.