Emily update

Well turns out i got to ask her out sooner than i thought. As I was talking to kirsty on AIM, she said that emily would be walking by in a few minutes on the way to her room so...I just caught her on the way there and asked. And she said YES!!!! I dont mean to sound to excitied, but I've never actualy had a girl say yes before, so its kinda important :) I asked her what she was doing on wensday and she said, "this wensday...nothing." I said "do you want to go bowling with me?" I know, bowling is odd, but i suck at it so it will make her look good. Besides we can talk alot too. When I asked if I should call her later on, she got this smile on her face and was like, "sure." I felt good. Totaly awesome night. Now all I have to do is just wait till Wensday, but wait...what am i going to ware??? lol j/k.

Spring break 2002

Well well, what to say about last week. Lets start at the begining. Monday I sat around on my ass all day until I went out with vickie to buy Morgan a birthday gift. I got her a winnie the pooh doll that was really soft and cudly. I know she liked it cuz I got many hugs :) I had to be at turner at 7am though to give it to her so I just spent the night at vickies which was cool. I was up on her computer untill like 2 online talking, even though I was told not to get online (sorry vickie, i lied).

After I got back I just slept. Wensday was another sit on my ass day, Thursday the same, but friday I went to Travis' house and hung out with some of his friends which was cool. We watched him play guitar for about 2 hours. All the girls really liked Your Body Is A Wonderland by John Mayer. They were all like, ohhh who sings that and sing it again lol. Go travis you pimp.

On saturday I got to go see Bryan Adams highschool jazz band play at a festival. They were better than I thought they would be but I think my band last year could of taken them. However, Travis says they were better last year, so I guess it all depends really on who graduated and who stayed. After I got home, about 3min after i got home, I had to turn around and go bowling with my family. It turns out that my cousin is now dating a girl i was best friends with when i was 4. She was in my preschool class and still remembers me. How odd is that??

Well, on tuesday, I was talking to Kristy and she said, "patrick can i ask you a favor?" I said sure. She went on to say that Emily has never dated anyone before and that she wants me to find her a guy. Well, since the only guys we both know are me and travis, she says, "why dont you ask her out?" I was very hesitant at first untill she said that Emily thinks I am a great and sweet guy. Well, this gets me all thinking and stuff so tomorrow, Im gonna ask her out. If you are wondering why I am putting this in here its because neither of them know about my journal so it doesn't matter what i say in here about them. The only night I have open for a date is wensday night so I hope she can do it then because I have steel drum on tuesday and thursday, and Im leaving for Austin to see the John Mayer concert on Friday. So....keep your fingers crossed. I will definitly keep this posted on what she says tomorrow.

Well thats about it for last week.

I hated this week

This was with out a dout, the worst week I have ever had. I had 3 mid terms: Theory, MuHu, and Aurl skills. Two concerts: steel drum band and afro-cuban. And two tests: English 2, and Piano. Not only did I have to deal with all that crap in one week, I also decided to put off my english project untill the last night. So needless to say I was up for a really really long time.

How long you ask....39 hours. It was 7am thursday morning untill 10pm friday night that i got sleep. I was in the computer lab from 12am untill 6am. It was awefull!! Let me discribe the different phases of being tierd that i went through. First there is just normal sleepy, second you become awake again and seem to have a reserve of energy in there somewhere, third your body trys to force you to sleep by taking away your enery. At this point it was 8am. I wasn't seeing clearly, I could walk strait, but it was a causious walk. Fourth, you turn into your mean phase. You hate every one and everything that you come in contact with. You dont want to speak, listen, or see anyone, you just want to be alone. Fith, somehow you wake up again and are perfectly normal for many hours, infact at this point I tried to sleep and couldn't!! Sixth, friday night sometime, I got very sleepy and had trouble staying awake before the movie, but because it was a good movie i stayed awake. Finaly, tenth, at home in front of the tv. I gave up and decided to fall asleep. It felt so good!! I had never slept like that before. Man it was fun.

Today, I woke up and had a nice long chat with Hannah. I tried to help her as much as I could on her relationship questions and from what she said I did a good job on helping her understand some things about her emotions and about life. It felt really good to hear her say that. Well thats all.

Prom #2

I got invited to come back to my highschool and go to prom this year. Vickie asked me. Since I only got one prom back when I was actualy in highschool I think this might be fun. I can do somethings differently than I did last year. Also, maybe I can win another tv and vcr. that was so cool!! I still cant believe I actualy won that. Even if its not that fun, I'll still make sure Vickie has a good time, after all, its her senior prom. We are going with a group of her friends which should be interesting. I dont know them that well, but I've always been quick to make friends so it should be ok.

This week is going to be Hell Week. I have 4 mid terms, 2 concerts, and an english research project due all by friday. Oh yea, I also have 2 private lessons. I dont really know how Im going to get through this with out completely killing my GPA. Something is gonna give out but I dont know what yet.

Im still debating what to get Morgan for her birthday if anything at all. I love her to death and shes still the lil' sis i never got, but she didn't get me anything so why should I get her anything? I dont know. Vickie thinks I should get her something anyway, but I still dont know.

I burned some CDs today. Linkin Park and Apocolyptica - a tribute to Metallica. I was suppose to give the Metallica one to Marcy, but it was so good that I'll just make her a copy tomorrow. I also need to make a copy of Travis' Vertical Horizon CD. I just need to find time to do all these things. AAAHHH!!! Im stressed out.

What a tight song

My Stupid Mouth
by: John Mayer

my stupid mouth has got me in trouble
I said too much again
to a date over dinner yesterday
and I could see she was offended
she said "well anyway"
just dying for a subject change

Chorus:
oh, another social casualty
score one more for me
how could I forget
mama said "think before speaking"
no filter in my head
oh, what's a boy to do?
I guess he better find one soon

we bit our lips
she looked out the window
rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess
with the salt and pepper shaker
and I could see clearly
an indelible line was drawn
between what was good, what just slipped out
and what went wrong

I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery than she desert me
oh, I'm never speaking up again
starting now

one more thing
why is it my fault?
so maybe I try too hard
but it's all because of this desire
I just want to be liked; I just want to be funny
look like the joke's on me
so call me Captain Backfire

I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery than she desert me
oh, I'm never speaking up again
I'm never speaking up again
I'm never speaking up again
starting now

John Mayer

For those of you who dont know, John Mayer is the coolest!! The original idea was that all of us were going to go to see his concert on the 30th in Dallas, but it got sold out before some of us were able to buy them. So, we bought tickets for the Austin show and we are gonna have a road trip!! Fran said we might be able to spend the night at her house which would be pretty nice of her parents. I still need to tell my parents where these tickets are for, but i guess they will find out some how.

JM's music is so sweet! Its mainly accoustic stuff with a little band behind it. I sat at the music hall computer lab today and downloaded every song on his new album, Room for Squares, and made the cd. The damn computer was crazy so it took me 2 1/2 hours to make the cd. I was so mad by the time it was finished, but hey its a bad ass cd and I'm glad I have it now.

Not much has happend lately. Turns out this is my 81st entry. My one year aniversary of writing in this journal is coming up on the 14th of this month. Look for something special on here for that one. Also, for the 100th entry, which probably wont come around for a few months, but its still something to look forward to.

I slept in today which I know is bad, but its getting harder and harder to wake up. I think we are all having severe sleep deprivation. I guess it doesn't help me writing this at 2:25am does it?? lol. Well, thats all for now, I'll go listen to some more JM.

Not much

Hey whats up journal? Not much has happend the last few days really. I've stayed up pretty late the last few nights which has been really interesting. I played Monopoly tonight with Kaline and a few of her friends. It was really cool because I kicked their asses :) Before that though, I had to go to Clark and walk her friend over to Bruce. I didn't mind much, I mean I understand why she didn't want to walk alone at night, but man its cold!!

I snowed yesterday morning and iced over everywhere. The college was shut down, to bad we didn't have any classes to cancel! It was awsome going sleding on my stolen cafateria tray. I stole it from Kerr when we went to luch. I went down the hill by the music buidling and it would of been all good if I hadn't nearly cracked my head open on the last time I went down. But hey, I didn't, so it was fun.

Karina and Marcy are off of some church retreat this weekend. Its weird with out both of them here but its all good. I mean, we get to spend sometime with out them and just hang out.

Oh yea, Brenna still hasn't said anything to me lately. She did IM travis though yesterday, so at least shes getting over it a little. I hope she says hi sometime soon. I miss talking to her. I should be like, "hey, get back in the kitchen and bake me a pie!!" lol j/k.

Well I have run out of things to say.