Well, its Sunday afternoon and my internet is down. I'll have to just write this now and upload it when the service comes back online. I feel good about having this diary again. I think it helps sometimes to have something to write all of your thoughts down in, even if nobody reads it.
Last night I saw most of Bridget Jones Diary. Its funny because at the end her love interest reads her diary and gets upset about what's in it. It reminded me of my old livejournal diary and how many times it got me into trouble with whoever was reading. Over all it was a cute movie and I'm glad that Hue Grant finally didn't get the girl in the end. I never really liked him. We had the sequel there too, but they decided to wait until later to watch.
I really hate my Charter Communications right now. Yes we get really fast internet, but every two weeks or so it randomly cuts off for like a day or two. They should get their shit together. Before it went down I was able t o change around my photo page a little bit. Added some new pictures and changed the lay out. Son said he would send me more so that I can post those up too. If my connection was working I would have done it last night...GRR!! Oh well, until then I can keep my self occupied with video games and music I suppose. I tried to write a song in Finale earlier but it didn't work. I've only written one song in there in my entire life and it took like a week of having no internet or TV or phone. I've realized you never have nothing to keep you occupied, you just have to find new things.
I guess that's what I'll be doing this summer. With Angelica being gone, possibly really gone this time, and with the friends all gone home, I'm not quite sure what I'll be able to do. Ya I'll take a few summer classes, hopefully meet some new people, make some new friends, but it wont be the same any more. Son isn't coming back to Bruce next semester so looks like I get to grow up this summer and learn to deal with what adults have to deal with. aka...being alone and finding ways to keep your self happy with out relying on other people. That has become increasingly harder to do with Angelica here now. Sometimes when I think about the summer and next year I think I can find a way to be happy with out her, and other times I don't know what I'm gonna do with out her. I know she's coming back to UNT next year, so she will be here, but will she be here for me anymore? I'm not sure what to do over the break, do I allow us to see other people and take the risk of loosing her for good to someone else or do I try to make it work? I've got a few weeks to decide so I'll think about it some more and then decide. I do love her and I do want to stay with her longer because she makes me happy....most of the time lol.
Well I guess I've rambled on enough for one entry. I'll check back in soon.
