Today is friday, and I am thankful for that. I'm trying to keep this journal unspecific and stick to just gernal ideas and emotions but sometimes that is hard to do. You never know who could be reading this.
Things are going good. I have to remind my self sometimes of how good I have it. I have tons of friends, a family who loves me, and I'm in a city that has literally thousands of people around my age who I can go meet. Now granted I'll never meet most of them and probably wouldn't want to know a lot of them, but I could if I wanted to. I feel like this journal has become a self peptalk lately.
This is such a tricky situation I'm in now and I dont think it should be. I'm so afraid of being alone in one way sometimes, I don't stop to think of how not alone I am in other ways. Ok so what, I dont have a girlfriend, is that really such a big deal? Can I not be happy being single? Many other people are. Can we just fast forward to like 4 months from now please? I'd really appreciate that.
Patrick, I'm going to tell you what everyone is telling you right now...You Need To Be Happy. Everyone just wants you to figure out how to get that way and then stay there. I figured I was doing a good job but apparently you still need to work on that my friend. And no one read this thinking that I mope around all day being depressed because...well...maybe sometimes I do....but not most of the time.
Ok I'm done.
