Its been about two and a half years since my last relationship and here I find my self seriously starting a new one. But there are questions to be asked. Here in my...fortress of solitude, we shall try to find the answers. So, here we go.
What is a relationship and what does it entail?
A relationship is when two people, who care very much about each other, enter into a formal bond to not emotionally or physically be with another person in the same way. This would mean being able to trust each other with certain aspects of your life and giving them pieces of your heart that no one else is allowed to have. Lets go deeper into trust for a second.
Trust in a relationship is huge. If you dont trust your girlfriend in a lot of ways, then it can lead to jealousy and smothering. Nothing can kill a relationship than those two things. In fact they probably lead into and cause each other. If you're jealous of someone else, you'll cling to your girlfriend like glue and smother her to death. I learned this lesson the hard way with my first girlfriend. I was jealous and tried to solve that by being very close to her all the time. The relationship only lasted about a month and a half.
Back to the topic of giving her pieces of your heart. Sometimes I wonder that maybe I shouldn't ever allow my self to get to close to someone again. Lets face it, the odds of it working out are 1 out of however many girls I will date in my entire life. Because in order for it to work out, we have to get married. I mean, isn't that what happens when you have a "successful relationship?" And even the odds of you having a successful marriage slim enough already? I know the divorce rate is up to 60%. But I digress...Do I truly want a long term relationship? Yes of course I do. I just dont want to get screwed over again. Angelica seemed like such a great person for quite sometime until I started going out with her and things fell apart. I remember when the first sign of problems started with Angelica about 2 weeks in. I sat there and thought to my self, do I want to go with this or get out now while I wasn't still attached? And I chose to keep going.
Now I find my self in that place again. Of course I dont have any signs of it not working out so far, but I just thought that I like her, but I'm not so attached yet that I couldn't stop it you know? But I feel my self getting more attached as the days go by and as we hang out and talk more.
Or, perhaps I'm just really over analyzing this and I should just enjoy my time with her for as long as I can. Yea I like that idea best.
