Still thinking

I told travis what happend saturday night. He had some good words of encouragement and some good questions to ask. I told him what I could and probably a little more than I said that night. Now that I can look back, i think i should have said things that night. But i didn't. I dont even know if I should tell them now. I know i have changed since last year and my views on relationships and how I should handle them are MUCH different than what I did last year. I wouldn't be so damn smothering and I wouldn't need to spend every waking hour with the girl anymore. ARRGG.....But I dont know if that would change anything.....man i hate what ifs. They just make you sad and depressed. Still haven't figured things out yet. Still not ready to talk. I need more time to figure things out. The one person I want to run and talk to is the person I cant go to. Wow, deja vu.