I should feel happy right now that spring break is coming up but I'm not. Why do I have this really bad feeling about going away for a week? I'm sure getting my car fixed up on saturday will cure me of a lot of these feelings but until then I just have to hang on. I don't want to come back from the break and have things be different. But they always are after a period of not being around each other. I've never been able to sustain anything past a break like this one and I hate that. And it's always their idea. They go away and they think them selves into not wanting to hang around me as much or not do something anymore or they just feel differently about me and I don't ever feel any differently about them. If anything it makes me want to be around them more.
A part of me says im worrying for nothing but I'm really not worrying for nothing because it always happens!! I don't want her emotions to end just because we spent time apart like the others did.
I don't want it to go away.
