The Night Before Bruce

Twas the night before Bruce and all through the house
not a creature was sturing, not even a mouse.
the boxes were all packed by the door with care
in hopes that strong, able, and awake bodies would soon be there.

I was nesstled all snug in my computer chair,
while visions of women danced around my thinning hair.
And ma'ma in her kerchif and nice little cap
had just settled down for a long 8 hour nap.

When in the living room there arose such a clatter
mom sprang from her bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the living room she flew like a flash
Tore open the door with a good hard SMASH!

The light of the screen on the newly packed up room
gave a hint that the school year was about to resume.
When what to her wondering eyes should appear
I, her son, holding a whole lot of beer.

With a twist and a turn, so lively and quick
she knew in a moment i was going to be sick!
More rapid than eagles my vomits did come
and for some reason i shouted and named each one.

Now PIZZA now TACO now BURGER with fixins
on CHICKEN on TURKEY who ill call Richard Nixon!
to the top of the toelit did I slowly crawl,
now flush away flush away flush away all!

And then, in a twinkling, I heard by the door
the screaming and yelling i didn't want to take anymore.
As i drew in my hand, and was turning around
Down came the first punishment, down with a bound.

Her eyes -- how they burn! Her dimples how mean,
Her cheeks were puffy, like two big red beans.
Her droll little mouth was drawn like a frown
And i knew in an instant I had let her down.

She was screaming and yelling, a stern type of mom
and i laughed when i saw her, her temper blew like a bomb.
with a wink of her eye and a twist of her head,
Soon lead me to know i was about to be dead.

She spoke not a word, but went straight to her work
and filled up the gun, then turned with a jerk.
And laying her fingers along the trigger
and giving it a squeeze, she then took the job of grave digger.

I awoke from my chair, to my wonder and joy
it was all a bad dream, a bad dream for this little boy.
I climbed into my "bed" and snuggled in tight,
"Happy move in to all, and to all a good night!"

Life...........by Christina

"but i do have the answer to your question - i know why you keep yourself alive. one of the greatest and most beautiful things about human nature is our element of curiousity. without it there would be no urpose in life, b/c we wouldnt care about anything. but were curious, and we do care, so we keep going. all of us. its the reason we manage to drag ourselves out of bed in the morning. its the reason we dont jump out of the window of the bedroom. and its the reason that we keep trying, over and over and over again, even after we get hurt worse than we ever thought possible, b/c somewhere out there is this idea that has been planted in our brain that life really is worth it and there is something that is worth living for. and b/c were curious and want to know, we keep on going. that is why you keep yourself alive."

Thank you Christina for your personal insight into life.

Top new music on my computer

Death Cab For Cutie, Dashboard Confessional, Velvet Revolver, The White Stripes, Jet, Alter Bridge. May not be new for you, but it's new on my computer.

Feed me Semore........Feed Me!!

Man, I need a girl.  Maybe its just because I have to sit in this house day after day after day after day after day after day....... alone most of the day and the only company I ever really have is my Mom and her 31 year old roommate.  I cant really tell if its the physical part of me talking or the emotional part or both.  I guess both because I mean what guy doesn't want to get laid every now again............ok all the time.............. but i also just want a girl to  be there and chill with and know that hey she really digs me over every other guy.  I need to feel important again.  Not that I consider my self unimportant now cuz I dont, i have friends and family and thats totaly cool and I cant imagine what I'd do with out them,  but you know what i mean.

Every year I start school with one thing in mind when it comes to girls, get a girlfriend or at least get laid.  So far, that has happend 2 out of 3 years.  Not to bad for a guy of my..............stature.............. and for a guy that never had anything close to a gf in high school, but I've got to get back into the swing of things.  The best opportunity I had last year I totaly threw away because I was fucking blind and was thinking with my dick and not my head.  Well I learned my lesson after she stoped talking to me all together.

Maybe I should do what I did my 1st year which was just show up and do school and just see if one comes along instead of looking for one.  Cuz I still got one that year.  Second year I came looking for one and got one.  Third year came looking for one and almost kinda got one, but I guess all the crap that was still going on in my life from that summer and what was being carried over from that last semester just needed to be dealt with and fixed before I could really move on.  So maybe that was why nothing ever happend.  Well, only a few more weeks until I get back and see how my luck turns out this year.  Wish me luck.

Well today was an interesting day. I talked to someone I hadn't talked to in a very long time only to find out that the reason we hadn't talked in so long wasn't the actual reason AT ALL. I know this sounds pretty vauge, but its a long long story and nothing can change what happend anyway. I can tell you its a girl I use to know and that she seems to be doing pretty well for her self now days. I always wondered how she was doing and what exactly happend that summer. Now I know...and knowings half the battle :) GI JOE!!! hehe jk. Anywayz, it was good to talk to her finaly. I had debated weither or not to IM her for a few days now. Im surprised I still remembered her screen name. We cleared up some............misunderstandings.........we had about each other and what went on. So, in summary, Id like to thank Shelley for giving me that shove to IM her finaly.

And that, as they say, is the rest of the story.