This Is Stupid

Crushes are stupid. They are almost always a waist of time and effort for me. And why the hell can't girls just be decent around here?

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Having a crush is such a stupid game. I thought I was to old for this crap. And why the hell don't girls know how to be decent anymore?

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I hate crushes, what a waist of my time.

Friends or Not

So I've been thinking, is it better to be friends for a while before trying to date someone or just go for it with out being friends? I can tell you from past experiences that I've had both happen to me and both end up failures. If you are friends for a while before hand, at least you have something to go back to if it doesn't work out, but you risk them finding someone else while your playing the game. If you try to jump into it you risk pushing them to fast or over stepping your bounds. My friends tell me to just do what comes naturally and hope for the best. Good advice.

In other news, I did something today I always told my self I would never NEVER do because I think guys who do it are shallow and uncomfortable with their own bodies. I'm not sure why I did it but damn I never noticed how white I really was until now. I also think keeping up with it is going to be a pain in the ass if i keep it this way. I also feel very cold suddenly.

Note to self: Late nights with Robin are extremely fun but you will pay for it the next day...

Last Minute Predictions

Ok last minute predictions for the Special "It's Showtime" Apple media event in an hour.

1. Movie Store
2. iPod Nano G2
3. Full Screen Video iPod

Maybes
1. Mac to TV device
2. iPhone

And then there is always the chance that there will be something COMPLETELY random that no one is thinking of.

Weekend from Hell

I swear this is one of THE craziest and painful weekends I have ever had. First off, I bitch slapped Chris Thomas out of anger which is the first time I have EVER hit someone in the face. I wont get into why I hit him, but everyone says he had it coming to him so I don't feel to bad. I was so angry and depressed that I just scootered my way to the nearest open parking lot and screamed my lungs out. Sometimes its good to just let it go.

Then the next night, I took a crazy fall off of my scooter and skinned my self up pretty badly. My shoulder, forearm, and two places on my right hand are skinned up. Then we tried to take the scooter to trade it in so I dont die and I couldn't because I cant find the receipt and Walmart doesn't even carry the E200, only the E150.

Thrid, Joseph got a flat tire on the way to my place. Then we couldn't get to discount tires in time. Then we couldn't get to Olive Garden in time for the never ending pasta bowl.

Fourth, I went out with Dawn and Van tonight only to find out the girl that was really cute is MARRIED (oops), then I went to Nicole's to find Heidi actually there with out Will, walked her back to Bruce IN THE RAIN only because she was drunk and it was 3am and theres no way in hell I'm letting her go back alone. So I find Megan in the lobby and she offeres to take me back which I was extremely grateful for and its always nice running into her. Well turns out she had friends waiting for her so I felt REALLY bad that I asked them to go get coffee at Jupiter House which made her friends pretty pissed. Then when we finally get to my place the damn trunk closes right on top of my HEAD!! Ya it hurts. Not to mention, thats not exactly how I want to introduce my self to people. "hey can you give me a ride, piss off your friends, and hit me over the head with your trunk?"

And the worst thing about all this is I still have one....more....day.....God help me.

No Answers, Just Questions

Every day I look around and I see a lot of pain in people. I see girls who have been used, lied to, walked on, cheated on, taken advantage of. They sit there every day alone in their rooms and cry and nobody hears them. I see guys who only know how to treat a girl like an object, a trophy. They are from families who either had a father who wouldn't/couldn't teach their sons properly or never had a father to begin with. They walk around all day thinking that if they just find that one girl who will do what they want, they will be happy. And the most frustrating part is I can't do anything to help any of them.

Every person has been hurt or had their heart broken and just can't seem to put it all together again. Maybe thats just life, but maybe there's more to it. I mean, did our parents go through stuff like this? Something in me wants to say that things weren't quite this bad when they were our age. Nobody tells the truth anymore about anything. Guys lie to get the girl in bed and girls do the same thing in return out of spite. Maybe this is what men get for all the years of keeping women under our thumbs for so many centuries. Girls sleep with every boy who will drop his pants for them because they think that if I have with him then maybe he will love me like i want. The girls think that they have been able to detach the emotional connection from sex and they are so wrong. I see it every time I talk to those girls that their hearts are broken and bruised and they have no idea how to fix it so they keep going back to more and more guys.

I dont understand this world anymore. I think the bible calls it a "dark and dying world" and Im starting to believe it. Where are the christian role models that we so desperately need today? Why can't they get it through their minds that all they do is turn people away and make it even worse for all of us? Stop protesting out side abortion clinics! Stop putting signs of dead babies on my campus! Stop going into my coffee shop trying to convert "the sinners." You ARE SINNER TOO! "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God." Do you stop to think about that before you run in to convert us? In the eyes of God we are all equal so you are just as "bad" as they are. Just because someone looks different than you doesn't make them a moral delinquent fools.

So how do we fix this? I dont know. One person at a time I guess. Matt Chandler, my pastor, always tells us, "I dont have any answers, just questions. But together we'll try to find them."