Christmas Eve

Its christmas eve again. I guess it could be better, seeing on how I still feel a little sick and my brother is only getting about 5 gifts tomorrow. Its weird because we aren't going any where tonight with my family or anything. It use to be fun to go to Grandma Stewart's house and open gifts. I guess those days died when she did. I miss being a young kid. Me and my brothers would go spend the night there and just play games all night. It was so much fun.

I hope I get alot of stuff tomorrow. I didn't ask for much again because I think that as we get older we tend to realize its not about gifts. This year seems to be missing alot of the christmas spirit. I suppose thats because they started to play christmas music a month ago and with no relatives around to celebrate with, it just doesn't feel like christmas. Well, maybe it will tomorrow when everyone is over here.

I talked to Travis today on the phone. It was good to talk to him again. We are probably gonna go do something for new years, weither thats going to Houston for Fran, or just chilling up here with his friends.

I re-wrote the chords for Come What May. It took me a while yesterday and today to get it right, but I finaly did. I submitted it to Harmony Central and Ultimate Guitar Tabs. I hope they get posted soon. It should be pretty cool.

Still no word from Morgan. I suppose I'll call her sometime tomorrow and say Merry Christmas. I miss talking to her. I wonder if she will ever email me again. We will see.

Im sick, but it was a good movie

I woke up today with a slight temperature and a soar throught. I just sat around the house all day until me and my family went and saw Lord of the Rings. The movie is kick ass awsome but its just so much of a cliff hanger at the end. The acting was great and the effects where even better. I cant wait till the next one comes out in a few months.

I also watched VH1's top 100 albums today too. The Beatles revolver was number 1. Metallica didn't have any on there at all!! I was totaly dissapointed.

After we all got home from the movie me, Jeremy, and Jill played Monopoly and I won again. It was great because it didn't take 4 hours to play this time and they both gave up. So I felt pretty good about that.

No word from Morgan, Brenna, or travis yet. Im sure they are doing fine. I know Morgan just got done with exams this week so maybe she will check her email soon. Im sure she will have like 5 from me depending on if she ever checks them or not. Brenna is....who knows...I'll just keep waiting for her responce. Travis sent me a forwarded email today. It was so funny!! It was a few pictures of political stuff.

New Orleans Trip

This was with out a dought one of the best trips I have ever been on. I've just returned from New Orleans where I saw many things.

We got there at about 7pm so me and brandon went out for a walk of the town. Unfortunitly, we walked in the wrong direction from Burbon street so all we did was eat dinner and walk around to see a bunch of crap.

Sunday, we practiced all day and at night me and brandon went out that night with some friends to the coolest place in town...Burbon street. This is the street that you see on "Girls Gone Wild" video tapes and stuff. There were so many hot chicks there!! All you had to do was have some beeds and they would flash you. It was sweet. We walked around for a while just checking out the women and a few shops, mostly the girls though. I didn't have anything to drink because I wanted to remember every bit of what I was seeing lol.

Monday morning came and we practiced until it started to rain and then we called it a day around noon. After sleeping in for a while, me and brandon went to lunch and on the way back I ran into Britney, the girl from the finals breakfast last week. She was like, yea im in 1633. I figured I would call her and see if she wanted to go hang out later. Well, I called right before we left for the cruz, but there was no answer, so I went along my marry way to the cruz which was so awesome. There was a live band and free buffet and the waiters were serving drinks to anyone with out showing ID's. Again, I didn't drink because I wanted to remember everything. After I got back to the hotel, I decided to pay Britney a visit before heading out. Just as i made it to her hall she was walking out with friends. We talked a bit as we rode down the ellivator together and she was like, come by my room later on tonight so we can hang out :) After a very exciting night on the town, I decided to go pay her a visit. Well, she wasn't there...2am, still not there...3am still not there, so I just left a note on the door saying I stoped by and hoped that she had a good day at the game and I went to bed very dissapointed.

Game day was long and tiring. We had to be in uniform all day long and we lost 45-20. Oh well, better luck next year. The bus ride was fun on the way back cuz I slept through most of it. Thats about all you guys need to know. The details aren't sutible for young audiences ;)

Crapy mood

I am totaly in a crapy mood right now. I cant see any of my friends from school, I'm pondering what to do if I cant make it in the music program and I have to transfer out of UNT, I cant ever get morgan to email me back anymore. Just a shity time. I wonder what ever happend to her.

I went to vickie's tonight with my dad cuz he was installing a dish washer for them. I she was doing good, but because we didn't get over there until 7pm she left after about 30min to go to temple. So I just sat around some more until my dad finished.

I'm not looking forward to this trip. I know it will probably turn out fun, but I just wish I could of had some more time to sit at home and do nothing for a while. I guess I have vented enough for one night.

Finaly home

I moved home for vacation yesterday. It was weird moving alot of my stuff out because it still feels like I haven't been there very long. I suppose thats because in college, things are always changing so you cant really get sunk into a set pattern, unlike highschool where everything is always the same. I said good bye to some of my friends and just tried not to think about coming back. It was raining the whole time we were loading the truck and with a drumset in the back of a pick up truck, it was very hurrysum business. We had to put a tarp over everything in the back.

The New Orleans trip starts tomorrow. I cant really tell if I'm excited or not. I want to go because I'll probably never get to again, but at the same time I'd really like to stay home and just do nothing. Or at least go hang out with my friends or something. Oh well, at least I have a chance of being on tv on tuesday, ESPN2.

I wonder what ever happend to Morgan. The last time she emailed me was weeks ago. I suppose she is just busy with school work and trying to make a relationship happen. I just dont want our friendship to drift apart.

I've started to download all the Jim Brickman songs in my piano books so I can hear what they sound like. It helps to know so I can fill in the parts that I can't play.

I found out that I didn't make the school of music. They can all suck my cock. If they would have told me that I was only gonna play a solo and not waist my time on those damn books, then I would have done better. They can all suck it sideways.

Easy day

Today was a tireing day. I was up till 4am, then slept for 2 hours, typed a paper for my enghish exam, slept for 2 more hours, went to english and turned in the porfolio, then came back and hung out with Venessa for a while. We just hung out in her room and chilled.

I kept meaning to take a nap or something, but it never happend. I just found things to do and procrastinated as much as possible. I went to the cup tonight for the finals breakfast. Since Marcy and Karina were talking away with people I didn't care to know, I made my own friends. I met this cool girl named Britney. Shes a jr and lives over in morzart but is moving to santa fae soon. I hope I'll see her around sometime.

I have an exam at 8am this morning for Music Fundimentals. It should be pretty easy, so I haven't needed to study much. Tomorrow should be a better day because I will have had more sleep time.

Only 3 days till New Orleans!!!!

Brenna's back

Me and Vennessa went heard about free food out side the library tonight so we decided to go check it out. While we were standing in line Brenna and her roommate came over :) It was really good to see Brenna again. We let them cut in line infront of us and we all sat and talked for a while. Me and Brenna talked mostly about what we had been up to lately. I'm gonna call her tomorrow and get her email address so we can stay in touch over the break. I was just thinking about her today too, kinda weird how she was just there.

Anywayz, me and vennessa are probably in for another long night. Who knows, I'll probably pull an all nighter but I'll be by my self because ven said she has 2 exams tomorrow. At least I'll try and keep her up as long as I can.

Nice to know

Today was a good day. I just sat around the house all day and watched TV. Tonight I watched this cool show about prehistoric animals on the discovery channel. It was sweet. Then I came back to school and I'm sitting here with Vennessa who said she missed me :) It made me feel good to hear her say that. Nice to know someone cares.

Home again

Well, I came home this weekend to get a christmas tree with my family. It only took us about 20min to find a good one, but its the whole "family get together" thing that makes it fun. We decided to get a white tree this year since we hadn't had one in alomst 6 years. Its not as big as we use to get them but the selection was really crappy so you know what they say, beggers cant be chosers.

Most of the day I just sat at home and did nothing which is exactly what I wanted to do. I have 2 exams this week and they shouldn't be to much trouble. I cant wait to get back to school though because the sooner this week is over the sooner I can get to New Orleans for the bowl game. I dont think UNT has a chance of winning, but at least it will be on ESPN2.

Caroling

I went Christmas caroling tonight at the nursing home. It was fun singing, but it was really sad to see all those old people so senial and crazy. You could tell they were all druged up on pain killers or whatever. My mom has always said to never put her in a home when she gets that age and seeing that makes me think there is no way I'm putting her in a place like that. She had to watch her grandma waist away in one of those things and I dont intend to watch that happen to her too.

I've got my snare jury tomorrow, that should be interseting. I suppose I'll just do whatever and hope they dont kill me. I dont even care anymore. They can all suck my cock. I'm just ready to go home and put all this crap behind me.

A bad day

I woke up at 7am to take a quiz which I didn't study for and made a 85 on. Then I went back to my room changed clothes and practiced for my barrier for 3 hours. Next, I went into the room and after working up books for 4 months, they dont even call any of them. I only played my solo and sight read some stuff. I waisted months of practicing time on crappy books which I didn't even need to begin with. I hate them all!!! Just goes to show that life is a bitch, then you die.

New Concept

Well, Its been a few days since I wrote. Sorry about that. I've been busy with practicing for jurys/barriers. I decided to take the day off today and go home to practice. It was really great because I went to my highschool to practice and I was there from 9:30am to 2:30pm. Plus, the drumline had class 4th period in the band hall so I got to see all my friends again. It was funny... I saw morgan walk in the band hall through the window of the practice room. So, I causualy kept practicing and waited for someone to tell her I was there or for her to figure it out. It took about 20 seconds for her to walk in the room... I was already smiling before she walked in.

It was really weird being at school for most of the day. Especialy when I left cuz since I dont have a car my dad had to come get me just like all the past years.

I was thinking that in highschool I felt like I had more control than I do now. It feels like last year, I could do anything I wanted and as long as I graduated, nothing mattered. Now that I'm in college, it seems like everything I do effects something else. I suppose this means I'm in the real world now, yeppie, its not all it's cracked up to be.

I've got my mallet barrier tomorrow and my concert band audition. God help me.

Fun fun fun

Last night I saw American Pie 2 at the Lyceum (its an auditorium) for the 2cd time. It was still just as funny as it was the first time I saw it. I got to the ticket window and rememberd I had left my card sitting in the lobby, so I ran back and got it then ran back to get my ticket. I was kinda tired after that.

Then afterwards I decided to go to Jack'n the box. Since I couldn't find anyone to go with me, I walked by my self all the way there and sat there since I didn't feel like walking back with my food. When I got to the counter they told me they dont except cards, so I was about to walk out when my friend who just happend to be there by some dumb luck, pulled out $6 and let me have it. I was thankfull.

Then I went down to Travis' room where we played computer games and talked until 4. I must say its the longest conversation I've had this whole year.

Next, I found Vennessa and we went into a practice room and listend to our friend play piano for about 2 more hours. He is really really good! He had this huge book full of songs he can play. Over all, a fun night.

Band Banquet and more

Tonight was the band banquet. I decided that me and Brenna should meet up at 6:30pm at her room to head over to the hotel. So I get to her door and no one is there. I think to my self, maybe she is at Bruce looking for me there, so I ask the guy working the counter where the phones are. He says are you looking for Brenna, I say yes, and he says her mom called and said for him to tell me that she would be a little late getting back. So I wait in the lobby watching MTV untill 6:45pm and she shows up. Man did she look good! I think we made a good couple. There was no kiss at the end or anything like that, but it was still a great time and I hope to do it again.

Afterwards, I hung out in the lobby playing pictionary then I went down stairs and tried to watch Far and Away, but I fell alseep. Can you blame me? Its a dumb chick flick. Now I think I will go to bed because I am tired. Good night.

Tired

Well, I had all of one hour of sleep in the past 2 days. Needless to say, Im very tired now. The only problem is that Bruce Jam is going on right now. Bruce Jam is where we turn the lobby into a 12 hour concert of several different bands. It was fun for a while, but now they have a jazz band on and even though they are very good, I dont like long drawn out solos. I like more big band stuff. I was sitting in the front row and found my self falling asleep, so I decided to try to wake my self up a little.

I bought the Daft Punk cd today. The first third of the cd is amazing, the most outstanding techno I've ever heard. The next thrid is ok, and the last third is just boring. Im still really glad I got it though.

I cant wait till the banquet tomorrow with Brenna. It should be awesome. A good few hours with a girl I can actualy stand to be around with. I guess I'll get back to the concert now.

Happy Birthday Fran

Tonight was a cool night in more ways than one. First, it was freezing. There was ice everywhere on the groud and our cars are starting to look like ice cubes. Second, I went with Brenna to Wal-Mart on the spur of the moment. After I picked up a CD she said that she would pay for it. I told her that she didn't need to and that I wanted to pay for it, but she insisted. She said, "think of it as an early christmas/late birthday present." It was a cd that has a bunch of famous artists singing patriotic songs.

Then I came back for Frans birthday party. My friends sent her on a scavenger hunt over the dorm and at each point, she would get a new clue on what to do and where to go. I was in the Red Room (the tv room) and she had to convince everyone in there to change the channel before I could give her the clue. Well, she failed in convencing anyone to change the channel, but I gave it to her anyway. This all ended up in Sarah's room where about 20 people waited to yell Surprise and sing happy birthday for her. It was really cool and Im glad that there are good people left in this world.

Everyone here is praying that the roads will freeze over and there wont be school tomorrow. I have to present my english paper tomorrow if they aren't canceld so everyone pray!!

God its so cold!!

I just thought I'd tell you that it is ass freazzing cold now. I walked out to go to private lessons and it was sleeting again. By the time I got out there were white paches all over the ground. Its so cool!! I love it!!

Cold, very cold

A huge cold front came through today droping the temperature down so low is started to sleet. For Texans, anything besids rain falling from the sky is a big deal. We all went and stood out side for a while, but it got old so we went back in and watched from a distance. I hope it ices over tonight so that we wont have school tomorrow. That would be so cool, that means no private lessons, YEAH!!!

I called Brenna today to talk and she had a guy over. She didn't tell me who, but as long as she is still going with me on friday I dont care. After the semester break, I dont see us staying in touch anymore. I mean, she lives in Maple and Im in Bruce and the only thing that reall kept us close was Whitney who is gone now. Oh well, next sememster is like a new year, so I'll get to meet some new people and hopefully find a cute chick of my own. Untill then, heres hoping.

Ouija Board

Tonight, I saw my first ouija board. The whole thing is kinda iffy for me, but I think that sometimes with certain people and certain places, that sometimes things might happen, so I refrained from playing. One of the RAs, Andrea, is doing a research project on it so she decided to play. Two guys played and one other video taped it. Everyone else left the room and waited in the hall. After about 15min, the door opend and they said that they asked the board if it wanted Andrea to come and play and it moved to yes. So Andrea came in and played for about 20 more minutes. I asked her how it went and she said it was pretty cool how it moved and answerd questions. One of the guys, Stephen, said that this was the most it had moved before with him playing.

All and all, it was an interesting experience to see. I do belive that there are things out there that we cant explain and I believe that demons and angels can cause things to happen. Now, can we contact them directly...who knows. All I know is that I will never play because these things scare the crap out of me.

No chords, alot of work, and a phone call

I got back to my room at about 9:30 last night and to my surprise my room had a peice of paper taped to my door. This paper said that a saftey check had been done and they found 2 etention chords in my room which are illegal so they were confistaited. Now, I had to plug in my clock, stereo, answering machine, and lamp into the surge protector which is now across from my desk. So I have a long line of black cords strung along my floor which is even more un safe than it was before. Good job staff.

I practiced most of this afternoon for my jury and barreirs that are next week. My marimba is on wensday, my snare is on friday and my school of music audition is also on friday. I have to get 3 letters of recamendation before wensday which shouldn't be to hard. I'll get two teachers here and get Mr. Moen to fill one out too.

I tried to call Morgan to see how auditions for Honor Band went, but to my surprise they aren't untill friday. Her email said monday, but it turns out percussion is going last again so it wont be till friday. Eitherway, I call back then and see how things went.

Im gonna go practice some more later on and write up a paper for english. Yeppie. Wish me luck.

Pimpin'

I went and bought a new suit today for the band banquet on saturday. Its dark blue jacket and pants with a light blue shit and matching tie. I also bought a red tie to go with a white shirt which I also bought. I would have to say that when I tried it on I was very pimp :)

I suppose I should go back to school sometime soon, but I think I'll wait untill after dinner becase the cafetirea wont open up till 7am tomorrow. I wrote a little more on my cadence today. I finaly finished the tenor solo. I think I made it really hard, oops, oh well, It will sound cool if I could ever get anyone to play it. Maybe if I work really hard at turner next semester they will let me come back and work with the Pit during the summer. I would kill to do that. I dont care what people say, I love that school and I'll do anything to work there.

Friends

I heard this song on the radio and it made me think of all my friends back home. I thought I'd put it up and let you guys read them. Its a song called Friends by Micheal W. Smith. Enjoy.

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Chorus:
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Yea Scotland

Today was another good day off from school. I sat around all day and wrote some more on the drum cadence I'm writing. I finaly titled it, Tearin' It Up. I dont know how good it will go over with my highschool though. As I keep writing more and more, it seems to get harder and harder. Each section has its own solo and I think the tenor solo is gonna be the hardest. But I think that with enough real practice, the line could get it.

I also watched Braveheart today. God I love that movie! My direct ancestors were scotish so I take great pride in my scotish hearitige. I remember on my senior band trip me, morgan, tamara, and ethan all went walking around this little amusment park and when we went into a flag shop I bought a 4X3 foot Scotish flag. Its so awesome! I have it hanging up in my room at school.

I love being home. No pressure of school or friends and I know that people actualy want me here. Unlike up there where you are just a number, not a person. I was thinking about my part time job next semester to teach the symphonic band at my highschool. Sullivan, the band teacher, said that Mr. Moen probably wouldn't mind if I helped out the Honor band too!! I was like, WOOO HOOO!!! Man that would be amazing, I could actualy have something to help them on and it would be all my friends anyway. This cant get any better. If I were to die right now, I would be a really happy man :) Well, I'm off to go watch SNL and write some more.

Oh yea, Morgan, if you read this, you are a pimp with you know who.

Play Off game

We got murderd. Me, my brother, his gf, and my dad went to see my old highschool play in a second round play off game, their first one since '68. The final score ended up at 33-7. On the first drive of the game we drove down the feild and stalled on the 1 yard line. That took away most of our momentum so after that it was all down hill for the other team.

The day wasn't a complete loss because I did get to see Morgan and my other friends. Morgan is doing fine of course, Vickie was mad again, Heidi had a hurt ankle from a soccer game she had this morning, and everyone else was pretty good. The good bye hug was kinda weird with morgan. It felt like everyone was watching, kinda...un-easy, but who the hell cares. I miss her and care for her and I know she does me, so they can think what they want. Well, I gtg watch a movie.

24+ hours

Oh boy where to begin. On tuesday night I had intended to talk on the computer for about 2 hours, practice for my piano quiz, then go to bed. Well instead, i was on the computer for 5 hours, then practiced till 4 and decided to stay up all night because I had a quiz at about 7:45am. So, with two cups of coffee and CNN to keep me company my long night began.

I was talking online with Heidi and Hannah for what turned out to be a long long time. I was going to leave, but I hadn't talked to either of them in a long time, so I figured I'd just stay on. I was in the 24 hour computer lab, so it's not like I was gonna get kicked out or anything. After I finaly left that, I had to go practice for my singing quiz. I checked out a piano key and headed down stairs.

After singing 9 minor melodies for an hour, I just jammed for the next 20min. Once I returned the key it was somewhere around 4am. Seeing this, I decided that if I were to go to sleep, I would be more tired than I would be if I had stayed awake. Not to mention I would of forgotten all of my practicing. So I grabbed more coffee, sat in front of the TV, and watched CNN untill 7am. Nothing really important happend on CNN at that time except for some Talaban guy made a public speach.

I ended up making a 100 on my quiz so it did pay off to stay up eventualy. My private lesson didn't go so well though. I practed for 3 hours strait and he didn't even go over what I practied!!! I hate that man. Then my brother came to get me at 1:30pm. Of course I couldn't find him till 2 then he wanted to go eat. So I got home around 3:30, watched TV all day, and fell sleep at 8. By the time I fell asleep I had been awake for 31 hours. Needless to say, I was pooped.

The next morning, Thanksgiving, started to early for me. At 7:30am I was woken up by my brother screaming out of his room, "would somebody let that dog in!!!!" So of course I did it. So then I fell back asleep for about 2 hours untill the Macy Parade came on. So we watched that, then the Cowboy game. Its a family tradition that we sit and watched the Cowboy game every year, so I did. I am a huge Dallas Cowboy fan anywayz, so it was all good. We lost 26-24. Oh well. Then we watched Smallville, then my mom had bought The Grinch with Jim Carrey on DVD, so we watched that too. Afterward, me, Vickie, Destiny, and the other guy (Paul I think), went out to IHOP. I was the only one who actualy ate a real meal so I felt kinda weird, but I was hungry.

So, there are my last two days. I hope you injoyed reading all that, I know I injoyed typing it.

Long Night

Last night I stayed up untill about 6am this morning. I was busy writing a paper until 2am anyway and Vennasa was trying to do the same in the lobby, so I thought I would at least keep her company. We watched cartoons in the Red Room and then I went to the couch to fall sleep. Some where around 8 Vennesa woke me up to say bye because she is leaving for home. I finaly went to my room after that and slept through English class and was late to Phyc 1000. I suppose that will get me in the end, but oh well, nothing I can do about that now.

I nailed my snare lesson today again. Michael (my teacher) was like, "wow way to go on the solo man. You really improved alot this week." I felt good :) Now I am free for the rest of the day to do whatever. I suppose I will go practice my mallets for my lesson tomorrow and practice my minor melodies for my singing quiz tomorrow too.

I found out the next play off game for Turner is friday at 2:30pm!! I wonder why it's so early. I guess it doesn't really matter though. I'm still going to see it either way with my dad. It will be good to see everyone again even though I just saw them last friday lol. Anywayz, the day is young and I must go make the most of it. TTYL

Stay The Course

I decided since I'm always at the computer everyday that I would start to keep this journal as a way to remember college a little better. Things are going good so far except for my lessons. I just dont seem to have the motivation to do it anymore. We have this thing called Barrier tests were over the semester we work on 3 books and at the end of the semester they call out any exercize, one in each book, and we have to be able to play them perfectly. Its really tuff up here but I know I can make it if I just try harder.

The people up here are great though. Sarah is sweet and cute, a typical Lake Highlands chick. Fran is extreamly talented in art and fun to hang with. Next is Karina, Fran's roommate, who was a drill team member back in highschool. She is probably the most fun to talk to because we connect really well. Marcy is the crazy Houston (Uston) girl who is always singing some song or another. Travis is cool. We hang out sometimes and just chill. We have music fundementals together at 8am MWF so we studied a little for it then just played computer games till 11pm. Landen is the crazy clown, Andrew is the bass player, Brenna is my band banquet date who smokes way to much, Vennesa is the theater singer who is moving to Michagain next year. Sometimes we will sit and sing songs that we know together. I'll never forget the time we went outside at 1am and danced in the water singing old musical songs.

But I still miss my friends from home. I miss Morgan's smile to great me in band each day, Vickie's complaining about being a Jew, Raul's coolness, Evan's stuborness, Ethan's hint of bad ass, Stephen's "im a pimp" vibe, Dustie's crazyness, Casey's sweetness, and just alot of other little things.

I know I can't go back now, but even if I could I probably wouldn't. I know this is were I belong now and no matter how bad I think it gets I know I have to stick with it till the end. The bible says "Stay the course" and I suppose that's my motto for this year. Well, I have to go eat lunch and then practice some more. I'll start to wrtie everyday from now on so I'll write again soon.

Winter Guard is cool!

I worked Saturday at my schools winter guard competition. You know the girls that twirl the flags in a marching band, well, they have their own competitions and they are called winter guards. I was a guide this year, which means I showed around the visiting team and guided them to their rooms, the warm up area, and the competition area. Luckily, I got assigned to Lewisville High School. I stayed with them for 5 hours and they won first place!!

They were so nice to me too!! They gave me some cookies that they had brought along and they talked to me and were really realy nice!! Not to mention they were 30 girls all in tights, jumping up and down right in front of me!! YEAH!!! I bought them 2 flowers to show them how much fun I had with them that day and to thank them for coming. All the girls gave me hugs and they let me sit with them when they called out the awards!! We were all so happy when they won 1st place. It was realy really fun and I might actually come back next year just to take Lewisville again lol. I'll never forget them.

give me money!!!

Well another day is gone and I am one step closer to graduating! apparently this is where things get really expensive. I have $17 for my NHS collar for my graduation robe, I have $40 for prom tickets, $23 for a senior t-shirt, $30 for senior picnic, and not to mention I am still trying to have a life here! I am accepting donations, so If you want to mail me money, just IM me and I'll give you my address.

Courtney and Michael

Two kids from my school died over the weekend and both of them were my age. I had seen one of them in the halls often, but never really knew who she was. The other kid, Michael, I didn't know at all. It's really odd how you can be looking at someone one day and know that they are gone now. We were all pretty sad at school, even those who didn't know them. I kinda wish I could of gone to the funeral, but because I didn't know them very well, I would of been out of place. My prayers go out to the families and I'll always remember the lives that we have lost.

Would you please take the time to tell someone you love them and that you do care because they may not be here tomorrow.

Its over

Spring Break of 2001 is over now, for me anywayz. I must admit it didn't end the way I had thought. Not only did I not go do anything, I also damaged, if not destroyed a friendship I had with someone who is a good friend. I hope we can work things out, but I don't know if she wants to now or not. I guess I'll find out on Sunday. I hope she does though and I am really sorry. I hope she had a good time yesterday at Six Flags at least, because I know it was funnier than what I did. Well, I'll write back soon and tell you how it goes.

Today

I will get out and do something to day if it kills me. This is spring break for crying out loud and I haven't stepped out of the house yet. I caught my ex-gf online last night and.....well....lets just say revenge is sweet. I also met Nicoles boy friend yesterday, who I found out lives in NC and she is in FL. I must say that this is probably the most intellectual guy I've ever had a conversation with. He seems to bring out the wise parts in me because I was making up these quotes just left and right while we were talking. They seem really happy together and I'm sure they will be as soon as they are together. Well, time to go live this day and make the best of it.

Holy crap!

I just got done pulling my entire computer apart because that little piece of a floppy disk broke off inside of the A: drive!! I had to literally pry it out and now it wont read disks. And to make things worse, now, the CD drive makes a weird noise when you open and close it!!! Well, I'll just go break something now. J/K.

Hanging By A Moment

This is a song called Hanging by a Moment by Lifehouse. Its a really great song and the words are awesome. If I were you I would download it off of napster. So here is the chorus:

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you.

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
and I don't know what I'm diving in to
just hanging by a moment here with you

Dear God

You know what? Girls suck! Geez, no wonder so many guys are gay now! Its because they can't take this anymore! Girls are so confusing and deceptive and they make you think things you don't really wanna think. I don't get it, they piss you off and you yell at them, but they find a way to make you seem like the bad guy and you actually start to feel bad!!!! Is that not the most messed up thing ever?!?! Well, I better go to bed. I need to relax and think about some things. Liz, if your reading this, I glad you got things worked out.

Another day is gone and guess this one ended a little better than the last one. True, I am still alone and with no one to talk to, but I think I'll be ok eventually. Nicole and her bf are in a fight and I hope everything gets worked out. I know I probably shouldn't get involved but I left a message on her journal saying that they should both just say they are sorry and move on. I hope this doesn't back fire on me like it did a few years ago, but that's a different couple and a different time. Well, maybe I'll write in here before I go to bed, if not, then good night.

Good morning everyone! Another day to spend doing nothing at home on my spring break vacation, YEA!! I slept on the couch again last night just because I could. I actually think its more comfortable than my bed is, go figure. Anywayz, I hope you all have a great day and I will write soon.

Well this sucks! to make things a little more worse, my other friend Nina, who is 14, got asked out for the third time in her life today and I've haven't even been asked out yet! What is wrong with this picture I ask?? I'll tell you what's wrong....my life is miserable!! When God made me, he broke the mold all right, right before he made me!!! Now I'm going to go to bed a sad and lonely little man with no girlfriend and no one to talk to.

Well, another day is gone and another day I go with out a girlfriend. Oh well, that's what college is for!! I heard a cool quote today so I thought I would put it one here:

Smart people learn to use their talents; Happy people learn to accept their flaws.

Nicole

I talked to Nicole (one of my journal friends) for the first time in a long time. She seems really cool and funny. I'm sure we are gonna have some good conversations and I'm glad I found a nice person online for once. TTYL

Good morning!! I woke up feeling very refreshed and awake today, probably due to the fact that I have no school!! I love Spring Break!! I'm looking forward to doing nothing all day so I'll write soon. TTYL

Well, it's been a while since I last wrote in here, but I'm happy to say that I'm back. Things got really weird with my now ex-girlfriend and we dont ever talk to each other so now is all good to write in here again. I missed writing online like I use to so I will do this untill I leave for college in Aug. I'm on spring break this week so I'll write in here alot. I better get going, its kinda late. TTYL