New Years Resolution

Id just like to say Happy New Years to everyone who reads this.

My new years resolution: To keep Desiree as my girlfriend.

So mad

Im so mad right now. My girlfriend was in tears over something my BEST FRIEND did. I thought there were rules that best friends weren't suppose to break. Like lying and telling secrets. Now shes has a huge head ake that wont go a way so that she cant sleep and she has an exam at 10:30am. Im tired of taking crap from them on her. I like her alot and they can suck it. Shes MY girlfriend, not theirs, and if they dont want her around then thats fine because I'll be with her more than them.

Last night

Last night was one of the strangest nights ever. In a single night I was able to fight with Desiree, make up, and physical injur her twice. I must be the luckiest guy in the world because she didn't break up with me after all that. Of course, she did get her revenge when she hit me in the freakin eye with her glove. It was all good though. We still had alot of fun. Especialy when we got caught in the boys bathroom at like 4 am in the music building. We just really had to go pee and sure enough as we are about to walk out here come the custondians. So we just hide inside the bathroom and they freakin had to walk in didnt they. It was so incredibly funny. We were all laughing as we were running out.

Only 5 more days left untill I dont get to see her for a month. This is gonna be so hard to do, but I know we can last if we just keep truthfull. I'd be really happy if i got the chance to go down and see her over break sometime. Even for just like a day it would be totaly cool. Maybe after friday her dad will let me come down or let her come up. Well, lets hope for the best.

A pretty good day

Lets see...today I took my playing exam in my brass class. It was pretty good considering I hadn't played my instrument in over a week. After that I worked for 3 hours at the front desk and then me and Desi hung out in my room untill it was time for my snare jury. Why couldn't my jury have been another day.......any other day.....just not today. I played well and Kaleen thought i did pretty good too.

It was kinda embarassing because as me and Desi were out in the hall waiting for me to go in, I bent down to kiss her, but I didn't see Kaleen stading there, so when I stood back up i was like, "oh hey kaleen, I uh......didn't see you there." Kaleen was trying to hold back the huge smile on her face as she turned to look away. lol Oh well, every couple does that stuff, including her, so I know she thought it was as funny as we did.

Im suppose to be having guys night tonight so we are going to eat then bowling maybe. I know its good that I get back out with my friends. I haven't really hung out with them alot lately, so I know its time I was with them for a while. Over all, it was a pretty damn good day.

Going home for a while

This is the day we all go home for Thanksgiving and for the first time, I dont want to go home!! I want to stay here and be with Desi and practice. OMG, patrick wants to practice? You bet I do. Desi doesn't want to go home either. Her dad was kind of mean to her yesterday when he came up, so I can understand why she wouldn't want to go, but I know as soon as she gets home with her friends she'll have a blast....Desi style.

Next week should be interesting. I have barriers on monday and tuesday, and I think I have my theory exam on tuesday too. Im pretty confused about it all. It's only gonna be a few days untill im back up here, but man its gonna feel longer. Being away from Bruce is like torture for most of us. Over the summer i was going mad because I wanted anything to do! Well, i should probably get ready to go. Desi will be here soon and then Im headed home. I hope everyone has a good thanksgiving.

A time to remember

Well, its official now. Me and Desiree are going out. I talked to her today and she decided that she was willing to give us a chance :) I am very happy. When she told me I got this huge smile on my face and we started to laugh. Her parents are here now, dont know if I really want to meet them. Probably wait untill another day for that one. Now comes the tricky part, trying to keep a relationship going. Should be fun :)

my leg!

Man, after i got off the comp last night, I got up to get a drink of water and my leg hurt to walk on! My mom said I probably pinched a nerve or something while i was sitting down. Im having to use this cane untill it gets better but it really hinders my movement. It better be fine by sat night or else Im in alot of trouble. There is no way in hell Im gonna use that cane at the banquet. Id rather just limp my way around.

A new year, a new motto

Wow, its been a long time since i last worte in here. When the summer was over, I went to write in it again and my computer crashed and i lost what i had wrote. So i was so mad i just lost all interest in this. But Im back.....yea!!!

So...let me bring you up to speed. Im now officialy a music education major and Im preparing for my first set of barrier tests. Should be really interesting. Ive met some new friends this semester. Lets go down the list:

I first met Sarah from crumley. I sarted off liking her, but she got weird all the sudden. That and i stoped seeing her for like 3 weeks, so I just kinda gave up. I still see her around and I say hi to her, but none of that other stuff any more.

Then there was Venessa, that was fun.....:( Yea, i liked her alot but she ended up just being a slut. I did ask her out, but she told me that i was pretty much just not good enough for her......yea......i dont talk to her much anymore. Its also werid because she lives in B3 just like venessa from last year.

Next there is jessica. Shes dating Travis now which is pretty cool. We knew her last year and we all thought she was pretty damn cute. Pretty ironic how travis is with her now. Oh well, gives the rest of us hope to keep going for what we see.

The newest addition is Desiree. Shes coming to band banquet with me on saturday which I was pretty suprised when she said yes. I had oringinaly thought about asking sarah, but then changed my mind to her. We've had some interesting times together, nothing I'd like to share with everyone online, but I would like to say that I dont think I've laughed so hard with a girl like I do when Im around her. Even if things dont work out the way Id like to, I'll still be friends with her. Hell, why give up a good friend.

Thats about it up to now. Pretty rough as far as emotional stuff goes, but I know I'll get through it all ok. Ive got my friends here and my music to relax me, so no matter what happens I'll keep my hopes up.

Its time for a new motto for this new school year, so this years is, "Never give up, no matter what." That applies to more than just one thing in my life right now. Especialy the marimba part, geez, sometimes i just want to quit being a music major. But I know I'll survive if i dont give up. Like I said last night to someone, Id rather loose than give up again.

Summer so far....

Well...summer is half way over so i figured I update finaly. So far it has been pretty fun. I've been down to see Travis a couple of times and met some really cool people. I've seen my highschool friends alot too. It seems like every weekend we try and do something together. I've even become closer with Tamara which is really great.

This summer has also been quite shocking recently. Some things have been brought to my attention that i really didn't expect from a few people. These kids now a days! Oh well, we all grow up sometime its just a matter of when. I just didn't expect it to be that fast for some...

For whats left of the summer I will be in school at Brookhaven College. Im taking History to 1865 and I still haven't got my books yet. Me and Travis were going to go to the John Mayer concert but we decided against it since its on the first tuesday of when school starts again. I wanted to go, but its not worth it knowing I'll have an 8 o'clock that next morning.

As for my motto of the summer, Tap that ass... well thats a story for another time ;)

It Is Finished

Wow, my first year of college is over! So much has happend in the last year, where do I begin to tell you about it. Through out everything that happend, I think I have changed and not changed in some ways.

For one, I think I've definitly become more aware of how people are out side of my small friends circle. I've become more open minded, more willing to change and try new things. I think I look at women a little more harshly than I did before I came. With all the girl stuff that has happend this year to me and to my friends, I have good reason to be bitter and my guy friends will agree with me.

I think I've gotten worse on procrastinating (I know I spelled that wrong so back off lol). I've gotten worse with keeping up on old friends. I haven't emailed Allison in months and I haven't emailed Morgan or Tamara in a while either. I miss talking to all of them. I thought about calling Allison to see if she had come home yet, but I'll do it later in the week.

Over all, this was a great year. I hated moving out and saying bye to everyone, but at least we are coming back and we all plan on keeping in touch with email and AIM. Working parking lot kinda sucked, but at least I got paid and I'll get to work front desk next year.

When I started to write in this journal some time back in sept or oct, I had a motto: Stay the Course. Well I did, and I came out on top.

So the motto for the summer is: Tap That Ass

Feeling Good

I know I should be feeling bad because Im not going to do good on my 8am exam tomorrow, but I dont really care right now. I just got done watching Ocean's Eleven and damn it was a great movie. It left me with a really good feeling inside. Im about to go practice piano some and then I think I'll have some coffee cuz I have to put out cones at 5:30 anywayz.

Travis got a call from Mozart today. Hopefully they will want him for a job there. Marcy is leaving tomorrow :( So is Venessa!! Geez, so many people to say good bye to. Oh well, I'll see most of them next year. I love my life :

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I cant tell you what I did today or who I was with while I was doing it, but know this...I had a bad ass day!!!

Snare Jury

I took my snare jury today. It went well I think. I wasn't so nervus like last semester and they all seemed to nod there heads after I was done. So who knows...I better make it this time. If i dont make the school of music this time, I think im gonna have to transfer out and just start over at a new school :( God help me if it comes to that.

I called up Tamara last night and got her email address from her finaly. I would have done it earlier if someone had given it to me...Morgan...oh well. We talked for a little bit on the phone which was really nice because I get to talk to her less than I do Morgan or Vickie. I emailed her about Bruce Jam and BHA elections and stuff. Hopefully she will read this journal cuz i put a link in there for her too. I hope things are going good with her and her classes. I can remember being a sophmore...it sucked. Your not a fish but your not an upper classmen either, just stuck in between, a nobody. lol Oh well at least she is on to bigger and better things next year.

I cant believe vickie is going to graduate soon. Thats just to odd. I remember when I was in 7th grade and she had to come up and play with us because one of our drummers failed. She did a good job and everthing, but i never really took the time to meet her. It will be really really weird when morgan and tamara graduate...gezz i feel old just thinking about it lol.

Bruce Jam - Spring 2002

Jennifer finaly decided to email me last night, however, morgan still hasn't. I had gotten Tamara's email address so I could wrtie her but i lost it when i came back up to school that day. Oh well, I'll call her over the weekend and get it.

Bruce Jam was pretty fun yesterday. Me, Travis, and Brent played a few cover songs and a few originals too. We ended up being the first band to play because the actual first band decided to cancel. There were about 10 people listening to us play, but oh well, its not like we worked all year for this or anything, it was just something we through together in a day. Brent's sining was pretty bad, we should have just let Travis sing everything. I mean brent wasn't that bad, its just that Travis could sing it better. People really liked Short People and My Life Sucks. Mainly because they were funny, not because they were good. Anywayz, it was all in good fun so I hope we can do it again next semester. We recorded it on Suns minidisk player so we are gonna try and put it on cd today and make copies.

Prom 2002

Well, another prom as gone by so I thought I should take the time and tell all of you how it went. First, I should probably start the day before prom. I had been asked to go to a christian concert by Emily #2 along with her friends. I said yes because 1 she is hot, 2 shes fun, and 3 her friends are cool. We decided to go eat dinner at Kerr which is the last time I saw my ID (more on that later). We got to the concert and the first band sucked. They were just a normal praise and worship band so no one really got into it or anything. The second band was pretty sweet. They kinda sounded like Weezer but only with christian lyrics. Some times it went over well, but sometimes they still sounded to "christian" for me. The third band was amazing!! They were called Rythem and they sounded alot like Tower of Power most of the time. They styles they played was anything from metal to funk. I got them to all sign my cd cover afterwards that I had won for giving up my shirt i was waring. Dont worry, I stole it back.

Saturday, I woke up at 7:15 to my bad in my dorm room. We had to leave to go see Jeremey play in the national volly-ball tournement in downtown Dallas. He didn't get to play at all cuz he is just a substitute, but at least he can say he was on the team. They never did when any games.

After that I went home and took a long rest in preperation for prom. Vickie came over at about 5:30 and we took pictures, then went over to someones house and picked up everyone else. There were 8 of us in all. We went to the park next and took some really sweet pictures. Then we were finaly off to prom. It was really fun cuz I got to see some old friends who were there and I danced like a crazy white guy. I didn't care if i looked dumb doing it, Im white, no one expects me to dance good.

Vickie said later on it was the funnist night she had ever had. Thank god....I was worried I wouldn't be any fun. Post-prom was cool too. I won a pair of Ranger Tickets so I cant say that it was a total loss. I also sang New York New York for the Kareoke. Everyone was like wow you are good! ha ha.

I found out that I lost my wallet sometime over the weekend. Luckily I have my old ID that i can use, but I dont have an ATM card now. Well, we will see how it goes

Happy Birthday Travis and Jammin in the Park

Let me start off by telling what happend on Travis' birthday. The plan was to go see a movie at 8 and take him out to eat after that. Well, I was suppose to have a lesson at 7 which is when we were gonna go stand in line. Turns out though, the lesson got canceled so I went to the line to find everyone. On the way over I ran into Emily (not the same emily, a new one). I had seen her before at Venture but never really talked to her. We hung out in line until they let us in and she seemed like a great girl. She said she is always hanging in Bruce so I hoped to see her the next day.

After the movie, we went back to Bruce, surpriesed Travis with two dvds (braveheart and american beauty), and went out to eat. It was fun at IHOP with everyone there this time. Even Karina decided to come this time. We all had some good laughs and it turns out the cashier must of done something wrong cuz I ended up not paying for anything! Weird...

So today, thinking about Emily the night before, caused me to want to find her number so i could call her and talk to her. Despite what Karina and Marcy thought, I was not trying to sleep with her or ask her out imediately or any thing. I was mearly trying to become friends with her.

Anywayz...Travis and I decided to go eat and about half way through, I saw Cassidy, Emilys best friend, sitting with Will. I decided to go over and say hi since i didn't see Emily there anyway. After talking for about 3min Emily showed up :) We sat and talked for about an hour or so and then went up to Grants room and hung there for a while.

We listend to his CD of him and his friends quartet. They are so good! Emily is going to buy on of the cds. Next, we all went to the concert band concert and got into a religious debate on how to gain salvation. He said you had to be babtised and me and Emily said you just have to beleive. After that, we went to Taco Cabana and sat for a long time and I met some really cool people. Ben is an awesome guy and the first person Emily met at UNT. They have become the best of friends and he is currently likeing Cassidy. She likes him back, but they are both waiting to see what God wants them to to...yea...

After that, Emily wanted to go to the park so Ben went back to his room and got 2 guitars and I went back to my room and got my Tumbaco. We went out to a park somewhere and just jammed for hours! It was so fun! We never even ran out of stuff to play. If we didn't know a song right then, we would just make up something and have fun with it. Emily was the only one who brought a sweater so I was kinda cold towards the end. It was totaly worth it and I am really glad I have met her and her friends. Why couldn't I of met her earlier!!

Turns out though, that like Karina, Fran, Emily #1, and every other girl here, Emily #2 does not want to date either anymore!!! She just decided this this semester too!! I didn't ask her out or anything, but it came up in conversation and she told us that. I was like, yeppie...another girl I cant start anything with. I made a big deal about how no girls want to date anyone anymore and all the guys were like, "Damn Straight!" It was funny. Emily said that the nice guys will end up with the girl in the end, but God knows when that will be.

Im going to see all of them tomorrow at Bruce for lunch around 1. I'll just sign in on departmental and leave. What a great group of people

taping, another chance, good bye, hello

Where to begin? I know its been a while since i last wrote, i just kinda lost interest this the last few weeks. Anywayz...I made a tape for bruce jam last week. Its just me on the piano singing a bunch of my favorite songs. Not the best of singing or playing, but I have fun doing it and if they dont want me in there I wont be to dissapointed. I sang a few songs for them on the tape such as Hitler had a gf, Short people, Hey mister, Epiphany, and Rubber Duckie. It should be fun if i actualy make it. Travis told me today that Brent wants to make a tape with us 3, i said sure why not. I mean maybe I'll get in there twice.

Turns out I wont get another chance to go out with Emily. I asked her out again and she said that she was to busy to go on dates right now. But of course, she had time to stay and watch movies all night with Kristy.....no bitterness there.

Its all most the end of the year and it looks like Fran and Travis are probably gonna make RA. I guess it wont be all bad if they do, I mean, at least they will try to move back the next semester. I still get my old room anywayz. Its just going to be wierd not seeing them for so long during the summer and next semester. But Im sure when school starts back up Im gonna wish it wasn't.

It will be nice to go home too. I'll get to see Morgan, vickie, tamara, and everyone else more often. I miss them alot. I got to see them over the weekend though and hang out for a few hours. Man, how people change when you dont see them for a while. Morgan and Tamara looked good! :) Anywayz, thats pretty much all that has happend.

Emily and John Mayer

Well, I just got back from my shin-dig with Emily and I thought I'd let you know how it went. We didn't get to go bowling like we had planned because when we got up there they said it was like an hour and a half wait so we just went out to eat.

Dinner was fun. We pretty much just talked alot about random stuff. Our weekends, the zoo trip, my austin trip, and pretty much anything we could think of. It was still alot of fun though and I'm glad i went out. I'm gonna ask her back out on thursday and see if we can go somewhere and actualy do something next time :) Well, I must say, for a first date, I thought I did pretty good...lets just hope she thinks the same...

This weekend was the John Mayer concert. IT WAS SO FREAKING AWESOME!!! We drove down most of friday and saw him at Tower Records, then we found out the location of the concert had changed to the Austin Music Hall and not Stubbs BBQ. So after we spent about 15min finding it and another 10 standing in line to get in we were finaly there. We got right up against the stage but really far over to the side, but still some awesome spots. He played all of the good songs and made them really long with bad ass solos!! I'll never forget that concert.

Afterwards we spent the night at fran's which was cool and went back the next day. Thats about it. I just have one thing to say...Go me...Go me.

Emily update

Well turns out i got to ask her out sooner than i thought. As I was talking to kirsty on AIM, she said that emily would be walking by in a few minutes on the way to her room so...I just caught her on the way there and asked. And she said YES!!!! I dont mean to sound to excitied, but I've never actualy had a girl say yes before, so its kinda important :) I asked her what she was doing on wensday and she said, "this wensday...nothing." I said "do you want to go bowling with me?" I know, bowling is odd, but i suck at it so it will make her look good. Besides we can talk alot too. When I asked if I should call her later on, she got this smile on her face and was like, "sure." I felt good. Totaly awesome night. Now all I have to do is just wait till Wensday, but wait...what am i going to ware??? lol j/k.

Spring break 2002

Well well, what to say about last week. Lets start at the begining. Monday I sat around on my ass all day until I went out with vickie to buy Morgan a birthday gift. I got her a winnie the pooh doll that was really soft and cudly. I know she liked it cuz I got many hugs :) I had to be at turner at 7am though to give it to her so I just spent the night at vickies which was cool. I was up on her computer untill like 2 online talking, even though I was told not to get online (sorry vickie, i lied).

After I got back I just slept. Wensday was another sit on my ass day, Thursday the same, but friday I went to Travis' house and hung out with some of his friends which was cool. We watched him play guitar for about 2 hours. All the girls really liked Your Body Is A Wonderland by John Mayer. They were all like, ohhh who sings that and sing it again lol. Go travis you pimp.

On saturday I got to go see Bryan Adams highschool jazz band play at a festival. They were better than I thought they would be but I think my band last year could of taken them. However, Travis says they were better last year, so I guess it all depends really on who graduated and who stayed. After I got home, about 3min after i got home, I had to turn around and go bowling with my family. It turns out that my cousin is now dating a girl i was best friends with when i was 4. She was in my preschool class and still remembers me. How odd is that??

Well, on tuesday, I was talking to Kristy and she said, "patrick can i ask you a favor?" I said sure. She went on to say that Emily has never dated anyone before and that she wants me to find her a guy. Well, since the only guys we both know are me and travis, she says, "why dont you ask her out?" I was very hesitant at first untill she said that Emily thinks I am a great and sweet guy. Well, this gets me all thinking and stuff so tomorrow, Im gonna ask her out. If you are wondering why I am putting this in here its because neither of them know about my journal so it doesn't matter what i say in here about them. The only night I have open for a date is wensday night so I hope she can do it then because I have steel drum on tuesday and thursday, and Im leaving for Austin to see the John Mayer concert on Friday. So....keep your fingers crossed. I will definitly keep this posted on what she says tomorrow.

Well thats about it for last week.

I hated this week

This was with out a dout, the worst week I have ever had. I had 3 mid terms: Theory, MuHu, and Aurl skills. Two concerts: steel drum band and afro-cuban. And two tests: English 2, and Piano. Not only did I have to deal with all that crap in one week, I also decided to put off my english project untill the last night. So needless to say I was up for a really really long time.

How long you ask....39 hours. It was 7am thursday morning untill 10pm friday night that i got sleep. I was in the computer lab from 12am untill 6am. It was awefull!! Let me discribe the different phases of being tierd that i went through. First there is just normal sleepy, second you become awake again and seem to have a reserve of energy in there somewhere, third your body trys to force you to sleep by taking away your enery. At this point it was 8am. I wasn't seeing clearly, I could walk strait, but it was a causious walk. Fourth, you turn into your mean phase. You hate every one and everything that you come in contact with. You dont want to speak, listen, or see anyone, you just want to be alone. Fith, somehow you wake up again and are perfectly normal for many hours, infact at this point I tried to sleep and couldn't!! Sixth, friday night sometime, I got very sleepy and had trouble staying awake before the movie, but because it was a good movie i stayed awake. Finaly, tenth, at home in front of the tv. I gave up and decided to fall asleep. It felt so good!! I had never slept like that before. Man it was fun.

Today, I woke up and had a nice long chat with Hannah. I tried to help her as much as I could on her relationship questions and from what she said I did a good job on helping her understand some things about her emotions and about life. It felt really good to hear her say that. Well thats all.

Prom #2

I got invited to come back to my highschool and go to prom this year. Vickie asked me. Since I only got one prom back when I was actualy in highschool I think this might be fun. I can do somethings differently than I did last year. Also, maybe I can win another tv and vcr. that was so cool!! I still cant believe I actualy won that. Even if its not that fun, I'll still make sure Vickie has a good time, after all, its her senior prom. We are going with a group of her friends which should be interesting. I dont know them that well, but I've always been quick to make friends so it should be ok.

This week is going to be Hell Week. I have 4 mid terms, 2 concerts, and an english research project due all by friday. Oh yea, I also have 2 private lessons. I dont really know how Im going to get through this with out completely killing my GPA. Something is gonna give out but I dont know what yet.

Im still debating what to get Morgan for her birthday if anything at all. I love her to death and shes still the lil' sis i never got, but she didn't get me anything so why should I get her anything? I dont know. Vickie thinks I should get her something anyway, but I still dont know.

I burned some CDs today. Linkin Park and Apocolyptica - a tribute to Metallica. I was suppose to give the Metallica one to Marcy, but it was so good that I'll just make her a copy tomorrow. I also need to make a copy of Travis' Vertical Horizon CD. I just need to find time to do all these things. AAAHHH!!! Im stressed out.

What a tight song

My Stupid Mouth
by: John Mayer

my stupid mouth has got me in trouble
I said too much again
to a date over dinner yesterday
and I could see she was offended
she said "well anyway"
just dying for a subject change

Chorus:
oh, another social casualty
score one more for me
how could I forget
mama said "think before speaking"
no filter in my head
oh, what's a boy to do?
I guess he better find one soon

we bit our lips
she looked out the window
rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess
with the salt and pepper shaker
and I could see clearly
an indelible line was drawn
between what was good, what just slipped out
and what went wrong

I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery than she desert me
oh, I'm never speaking up again
starting now

one more thing
why is it my fault?
so maybe I try too hard
but it's all because of this desire
I just want to be liked; I just want to be funny
look like the joke's on me
so call me Captain Backfire

I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery than she desert me
oh, I'm never speaking up again
I'm never speaking up again
I'm never speaking up again
starting now

John Mayer

For those of you who dont know, John Mayer is the coolest!! The original idea was that all of us were going to go to see his concert on the 30th in Dallas, but it got sold out before some of us were able to buy them. So, we bought tickets for the Austin show and we are gonna have a road trip!! Fran said we might be able to spend the night at her house which would be pretty nice of her parents. I still need to tell my parents where these tickets are for, but i guess they will find out some how.

JM's music is so sweet! Its mainly accoustic stuff with a little band behind it. I sat at the music hall computer lab today and downloaded every song on his new album, Room for Squares, and made the cd. The damn computer was crazy so it took me 2 1/2 hours to make the cd. I was so mad by the time it was finished, but hey its a bad ass cd and I'm glad I have it now.

Not much has happend lately. Turns out this is my 81st entry. My one year aniversary of writing in this journal is coming up on the 14th of this month. Look for something special on here for that one. Also, for the 100th entry, which probably wont come around for a few months, but its still something to look forward to.

I slept in today which I know is bad, but its getting harder and harder to wake up. I think we are all having severe sleep deprivation. I guess it doesn't help me writing this at 2:25am does it?? lol. Well, thats all for now, I'll go listen to some more JM.

Not much

Hey whats up journal? Not much has happend the last few days really. I've stayed up pretty late the last few nights which has been really interesting. I played Monopoly tonight with Kaline and a few of her friends. It was really cool because I kicked their asses :) Before that though, I had to go to Clark and walk her friend over to Bruce. I didn't mind much, I mean I understand why she didn't want to walk alone at night, but man its cold!!

I snowed yesterday morning and iced over everywhere. The college was shut down, to bad we didn't have any classes to cancel! It was awsome going sleding on my stolen cafateria tray. I stole it from Kerr when we went to luch. I went down the hill by the music buidling and it would of been all good if I hadn't nearly cracked my head open on the last time I went down. But hey, I didn't, so it was fun.

Karina and Marcy are off of some church retreat this weekend. Its weird with out both of them here but its all good. I mean, we get to spend sometime with out them and just hang out.

Oh yea, Brenna still hasn't said anything to me lately. She did IM travis though yesterday, so at least shes getting over it a little. I hope she says hi sometime soon. I miss talking to her. I should be like, "hey, get back in the kitchen and bake me a pie!!" lol j/k.

Well I have run out of things to say.

Housing fiasco, a concert, and a cold walk

Oh boy, today was really interesting and pretty long. It starts at 12am with me, Travis, and Brenna all talking online. We were all really tired and our emotions were getting to us, so it got really weird. No one really had any idea what to do later on, but the plan was to go over to brenna's to watch a movie and hang. So, I went to bed.

Next, I woke up at 7am in order to go to the computer lab and register for housing next semester. Well, when 3,000 students are all trying to get on to once web page at once, it tends to crash. It lasted about 10min then went bye bye. Hardly anyone actualy go through. I did get through, but by the time i did for some reason it said bruce hall was filled up, so being scared that i wouldn't get into housing at all, i signed up for Kerr. This was a big mistake so i had to go over to houseing, talk to the guy personaly and explain why i needed to be in bruce so badly. I gave him a pitty story about being short and not being able to walk far, yea i lied, but i got to stay in bruce :)

So finaly, I'm thinking, good now i get to go chill with brenna and travis and have some fun, but noooo i had forgotten about Jeremy's concert tonight so at 3pm I had to leave for Waco. After calling up Brenna and saying i was sorry, I left for Baylor. The concert was cool and they played some really cool music. I also got to go out to eat with Jeremy and Jill which was nice because I hadn't in a while.

After another 2 1/2 hour car ride back up to Denton, I called up Brenna to see what was going on. Travis was still there and the movie was almost over, so in the cold with only a long sleeve shirt on, I decided to go over. I almost froze to death. But after I got there it was totaly cool. Brenna was still nice as ever and everything was normal dispite last night. We got yelled at by her RA to be quiet, well...ok...i got yelled at lol. Anyway, brenna wanted me to show her my handstand stuff so i did which was cool but I realized I was really weak compared to what i use to be. But i still think they enjoyed it. On the way back I ran into Kristen Rutherford. I hadn't seen her in a few months and she even gave us a ride back to Bruce so we wouldn't freeze. What a nice girl.

So over all a long, cold, parlty crapy day that ended very very well.

Jammin with Nicholas

Nicholas came up today and we jammed for a few hours. It was sweet. Since I haven't played with him in so long I had fogotten how good he plays. Only bad thing was he couldn't remember alot of the songs we use to jam out with when i lived at home. OH well, I told him to relearn them so the next time he comes up we can play longer and have more fun with it. His gf came up too, Lacey, which was cool because she took pics of us as we were playing. I never take alot pics with my friends, so its good that I'll have some to look back on. After we were done playing, me, nick, lacey, and travis all went out to the front and sat out side on the grass and just chilled. Turns out Fran and Karina happend to walk by while we were out there and wondered who we were sitting with. I wish they had come over and said hi, oh well.

On friday, me and Karina had a quiet time together in the Union. It was cool because I read 2Kings chapter 3 and we compared notes on it afterwards. Karina has an amazing ability to pull out info that I never even thought of. She said that people will take away different things, which is understandable, but still...I was just blown away by how much she understood it.

We watched some movies tonight in travis' room. We watched Last of the Mohekans and it was really cool. It was me, travis, bobby, luis, fran and karina. Afterwards me, bobby, and travis stayed up and just chilled which is what we are doing now lol. Well, I'm done.

Tag

Well, another semester of Tag has come and gone, for me at least. I only lasted about 11 hours this time compared to my 4 days last time. I was talking at the front desk with Andrea, Jessica, and Sherri untill about 3:45 when I decided to go to bed. I knew my target was in the lobby and I knew she would probably come after me, but I really didn't care if I died or not so I just walked right by the lobby. She walked up to me and killed me. Oh well, I felt good about it because I didn't have to run around anymore. Besides, I had my fun last time. I know what its like and I know I can survive as long as I want to and still move around. So, next semester, I'll be better like I was.

Travis made me a cd for Fran for valentines day and Fran made me a copy of it. Its an awsome CD. Its got Frank Sinatra, Vertical Horizon, Staind, DMB, and alot of others. I listen to it alot. I think Brenna might have a "thing" for him now. I dont know really, she is dropping hints and she did tell me he thought he was cute, so go travis. It would be nice to for her go out with a guy I know wont be a jerk to her eventualy. I haven't spoken to her since early last week. I've tried to call her but I never came seem to get a hold of her. I hope things are going good.

I have to come up with a story for English. Sarah gave me the idea of some kids who get locked in the cafetirea over night and tell about their wild adventure. Well, I gtg to class now.

All banged up

Today was a pretty cool day except for the fact that I got am brused and sore in many places. Me and travis went to carrollton to pick up the flowers for the girls. It took us 2 hours to go and get back because there was a wreck on I35 so we took the long way back. All 3 of them really seemed to like the roses. We all got hugs of course which is always cool and its nice to do something good for someone.

But after that, me and travis went and worked out which totaly messed me up. I worked mostly my pecs and stomach. We did that for about 2 hours then played raqetball with Fran which is were i really got hurt. My arms were so tired I couldn't even pick my self up off the ground so when i was running towards the wall I couldn't stop my self. So I SMASHED into it elbow first and then my knee hit. My elbow has a bruse on it now and my knee still hurts a little. Im also still sore from working out. So much uncomfertableness.

Its times like this I miss Morgan. Cuz she would of said, "aww Im sorry!" and "are you ok?" over and over again. My friends here did that a few times, but Morgan just has away to make it better. I got to see her yesterday at turner. I caught her coming in and talked with her. She threw down her bag and ran over to me, sliding on her knees to give me a huge hug (something I totaly miss). I decided to walk her to class and she was like come in, so I felt weird but i came in and talked to the teacher who i knew because he taught both of my brothers. He was like, "morgan, give patrick a tour of the studio." So she got to walk me around. Its so cool over there, they have a tv set and a radio station, and all sorts of camera stuff. I wish I would of had that when I was there.

Well, I suppose I'll go watch X-Men now at the front desk.

Mardi Gras

What a cool day. Yesterday we had the mardi gras party in our dorm for the whole school. There were tons of people there and the best part was that they had kareokie too. Earlier in the month, we all filled out match maker papers to get matched up with people just for fun. It turns out that I actualy knew who I was matched up with. I see her alot actualy.

Later on, I remembered back to last year when I use to sing New York, New York at home, so I decided that I should sing that song. I was so nervus I almost peed in my pants. I got a huge applaud though and my friends all said I was awesome. Score me! Then, me and Travis decided to do Brown Eyed Girl, but lets just say it didn't go so well. Oh well, we aren't supposed to be good, its kareokie.

After it was technicaly over me, fran, and travis all went to the concert hall and dacned with the RA's untill about 2. It was so cool, we dacned to every kind of music you can think of. Techno, Rock, Pop, Country, what ever you wanted we danced to it.

The whole night ended around 2:30am for me and travis who stayed up and talked a bit. Last night was a blast. Tomorrow, hopefully nicholas will come over and we can jam and let my friends watch. I cant wait to let everyone hear him play. What a bad ass.

New passtime

I've found a new passtime for my self. I'm in the computer lab in the music building and let me tell you, its freaken awesome up here. These computers download faster than ours in the dorm because they aren't behind a firewall. Right now I'm downloading the movie moulin rouge. It should take about 20min or so, but then i'll sit and watch it. Also, ive download several songs by Tantric, Metallica, Jimmy Eat World, and Tenacious D. This is so cool.

Im going back home on friday to teach. It should be fun as usual. But before then, I have to get through tonight. Tonight is the Martie Graw (i know its mis-spelled) thing in the concert all. She doesn't know it yet, but Fran turned out to me my match on the match maker list. I think Demetrie purposely did it because i said i didn't want anyone really tall. Well, theres one more reason not to like him. Dont get me wrong, Fran is an awsome girl, and it is good that i got stuck with someone I know, but i was hoping for a new person so I could make friends or something. But oh well, I guess I'll have to keep on trucking by my own ways for a while until next Valentines day.

A wierd feeling

I feel like I should do something right now, but I dont know what it is. Its not practice piano, or listen to music, or watch a movie, or tv, but I figure its got to be something. So I decided to come and write a little bit more for the day.

I watched Moulin Rouge tonight at the front desk. It would of been just as good as it always is if Valerie hadn't been there to talk over all of it. It really pissed me off because Fran hadn't seen it and I wanted her to get the full effect of the movie. I think she liked it, but i dont think she injoyed it as much as she could have. I really dont like Valerie now, but then again, I never really have in the first place.

I caught Karina on her way back tonight. Her lip is still a little swollen, but I dont think you could tell from far away. I can only imagine how her parents must of felt when they saw it. She said there were pretty shocked. She also said they had a good time today which is cool. Im sure if i didn't live 30min away, my parents would probably do the same thing every now and then for me. At least, Id hope so.

Well, since I'm out of things to talk about. I'll go find something else to do now.

Opera and dancing

Last night me, marcy, fran and karina went to go see bobby's opera. It was actualy pretty good. It was like an opera for kids so it was in english and pretty funny. Afterwards we all went to Whataburger which was good because I was starving. When we got back we went swing dancing in the concert hall which was pretty interesting. Marcy and Karina love to dance so they imediately started dancing with someone. I, on the other hand, didn't have anyone to dance with so I sat there most of the time. Kinda of depressing, I know, but it at least I'm not the one who got popped in the mouth by bobby's hand...Karina. It was awfull, he hit her jaw and it made her bite her own lip open. There was blood and tears and all shorts of "I'm sorrys" going on. She kept an ice pack on it for the rest of the night and I didn't get a chance to see what she looked like today because she spent it with her parents and still isn't back yet. So, over all it was an interesting day.

Travis should be back tomorrow which is cool because we can jam. I'm starting to like jamming with him more and more as we learn more songs. Even though we just goof off most of the time, its still fun hell.

Ok thats it for now.

Snow, snow, and more snow

Well it snowed finaly. Ive been waiting for it to snow this whole winter and boy did we ever get it. The had to cancel classes till 10am today, but it didn't do me any good because my first class was at 10!!

I had a pretty long night last night. I was up till 2am in Karina's room with everyone else and then after we left, i rememberd I had a 3-5 page paper to go type up. So I eventualy found my way to the computer around 2:30 and started to fall asleep typing at almost 4 and decided to take a nap on the couch in the lobby. I woke up at about 8am and went right back to the paper. To make a long story short, I got to class and he didn't even check them. We just did peer editing which was kinda cool because i got a number from this really sweet and cute chick named Amanda Bruce. I think I'll call her tomorrow or something.

I made a snow man and I got my picture taken by the UNT news paper guy. But when I looked in the paper today, I wasn't there! I guess I wasn't cool enough. Oh well.

Super Bowl

Another super bowl happend today. It was a great game and I fun over at scotts watching it. Travis came along too which was really cool. The Rams came back from 17-3 and tied it with 1:30 left in the game, but New England took it down and scored a feild goal when the time.

Then I decided to come back to school and me and travis went down to his room to just chil but ended up here in frans room again. Big surprise, oh well, at least Im not sleeping or anything. I guess thats about it for now.

A good saturday

Today was a good day. It started off slow but picked up into a really good ending. When I woke up I realized that for the first time in the whole year, I was going to be in Bruce with out Karina, Marcy, or Fran for the whole day. After me and Travis went to lunch, I went to the library and got my mallet solo that Nathan wanted me to get and went down stairs to Travis's room and played Starcraft for a few hours.

After that, he wanted to go work out so I said I would call him to go eat. At about 5:45, I saw Luis by the front desk and he wanted to go eat so I called Travis but he was still gone, so I left and ate at Kerr. Little did I know that Travis would get back 10min later and that only 2min later Brenna called me to come over and watch some movies with her and her sister. So after I get back from eating, I find Travis and decided to check my messages. I quickly decided to go be with Brenna instead of eating cuz I knew we would end up eating out later on. We watched Swordfish, then went out to IHOP (see i knew we would go out)

Then we all went to Travis' room to watch Fight Club and just hang out. It was great to see Brenna again and talk with her. Shes feeling better, which is good, and I love to be with her because she makes me laugh. April emailed me today too. I hadn't heard from her in a while, so I decided to write her back. Surprisingly, she emailed me back already. No one ever emails me back in the same day. Kinda cool.

I wonder how things went today at the ranger thing with Karina and them. I guess I'll ask about it tomorrow. Oh yea, Morgan finaly emailed me back a few days ago. Thank You.

First day of teaching

I taught the percussion at Turner today. It was pretty cool actualy. I got to see Morgan, Tamara, and Vickie while I was there and we only did stuff for about 45min then sat around and did squat for a whie. Sullivan wants me to come back on friday so I can see how it all fits with the band. I still haven't talked about payment yet, but I dont really know how to ask about it. I guess the direct answer is always best.

Anywayz, I also got a late chritmas/late birthday present from Travis today. He decided that while he was at home he would buy us all gifts since he didn't do it for our birthdays. But he didn't really know us real well when we had them, so we didn't expect anything from him to begin with. However, It was a totaly cool thing to do. He got me an American flag to replace the one that those bastards stole from me. He got Marcy the likin park cd and I cant remember what he got fran and karina. Im sure it was something cool though.

Im pretty board right now, Im just sitting here. I could go see Ed Soph play, but I decided against it because I hate the people in this music program and I really dont care. Karina is out somewhere and Fran is at a lab. Travis is out doing something somewhere and Vennessa is in a meeting. Well, I guess I'll go give Marcy a whats up but Im sure she will be studying. Oh well.

monday Monday MONDAY

I finaly get to start working on monday at my highschool. It should be pretty cool. I get to go see alot of my old friends and teach them a few tricks of the trade and stuff. Also, with any luck, I'll catch Morgan on her way in or something. Its gonna be the first job I've ever really had. Kinda weird how I've gone 19 years with no job or anything. Oh well, at least now I'll have some money of my own and I wont have to ask my parents for it all the time.

The past few days have been pretty good. I missed 2 assignments in MuHu though...sucks. I can still do one of them so ill do that tonight. Mostly, I've been hanging out with "the circle" (fran, travis, karina, marcy, and me). I call it the circle so I wont have to type in all their names again. Right now, karina is studying, marcy is studying, fran might be sleeping, and travis is either studying or sleeping.

I tried to call Morgan tonight to see if it monday was a B day or A day. Her mom said she was sick and alseep, but I found out from one of my other friends anyway. I dont know if I would have brought up the fact that she hasn't emailed me since early dec. Oh well, if I see her on monday I'll make sure I say something to her. She never did give me a brithday gift either. Of course, neither did my friends up here either. Although, at least they made part of it. They just never got around to finishing it.

A good movie, a good day

I saw a good movie tonight, Black Hawk Down. Its about a mission in Somolia that the special ops did back in 93. It was a great movie and story and it was kinda sad too. At the end it said that 1000 somalians died in the raid and only 19 American soilders died. Thats really good odds for us!! The only sent in like 100 men in the first place.

Afterwards, me, fran, and travis went to Tia's to eat dinner. I had the cassedias which were really good. We talked about our worst dates ever and travis took the gold. I wont get into it, but lets just say its the worst story I've ever heard.

Now we are just chilling in Frans room waiting for Karina to get up here. She's talking to her sister on the phone about whatever. Marcy is online across the room from me, kinda wierd.

No school tomorrow, YEAH!!! Over all, I'd say it was a good day.

happy birthday marcelina

Today we celebrated Marcy's birthday. It was pretty cool actualy. Karina and Fran had turned the concert hall into a party room by the time I got back from home.

I went home to put my techno songs on to a cd and copy the music generator program. I ended up staying longer than I wanted to and made it back just in time before Marcy showed up. We danced, sang, hit each other with balloons, and just about everything else you do at a non-alcoholic party. Scott invited me to go to a party at his house, but I wasn't going to miss Marcy's party for the world.

Afterwards we played Moffia in the lobby for a few hours. Demettri really pissed me off. I dont know what it is about him that I dont like, but I just really dont like the boy. Maybe its the fact that he is as gay as a $3 bill. Who knows, I try to keep my distance from him and just not let him get to me any more.

I didn't have a quiet time today for the first time since monday. I know I should have, but I was to caught up in doing things to sit down and read. I really injoy reading my bible now. Its filled with amazing things that you never knew where in there. I'll go to church tomorrow just for that reason. Lord knows its not to socialize afterwards. I know I'll end up standing there with random people acting like I'm their friend for about 30min afterwards, but I really dont care. Im not there for them, Im there for me.

Well, Happy Birthday Marcelina. I hope your next year is as good as it can be.

Oh Not another song...

Come What May
from the soundtrack of Moulin Rouge

Never knew I could feel like this
like ive never seen the sky before
want to vanish inside your kiss
everyday I love you more and more

Listen to your heart can you hear it sing
telling me to give you everything
seasons may change, winter to spring
but I love you until the end of time.

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dieing day.

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
suddenly my life doesn't seem such as waist
it all revolves around you

and theres no moutain to high,
no river to wide,
sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
storms clouds may gather and stars may colide
but i love you, until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you, until my dieing day.

A few new things

First off, sorry for not writing in here for awhile. What can I say, the first week of classes is pretty busy. I've been everywhere in the last few days. Portmans with Brenna, our bookstore with amber and by my self, not to mention my new classes.

I've started to have a quiet time now. I figured, maybe there is something that my life is missing besides a girl, and I've always known I should be reading my bible anyway. So, for the last few days me and Karina set together and just read, pray, and write some notes. Its totaly been worth it. Im learning some amazing things about Jesus and about how I should be living my life. Its quite amazing.

Also, I think this RA from McConnell likes me or something. All the sudden shes started to give me hugs when ever she sees me, even though I just saw her like 10 min ago. Then today, she was flirting with me by taking my hat. And she said as she was hugging me, "your so cute!" So who knows. I would be totaly excited if it wasn't for the fact that she is bi. Shes only had one girlfriend and it was just last month and it only lasted for a few weeks. But it still freaks me out. I mean, how do I know she wont cheat on me with another girl?? Its twice to opportunity to cheat on me. I suppose I'll just see how things go with her.

No word from Morgan....still....

A good night

Everyone is either here or on their way here by now. Travis got in yesterday and Vennessa is on her way. She should be here sometime tonight. Fran should also be back some time this afternoon.

Last night was another fun night of course. First, me and travis played pool while karina and marcy worked on their "dance." After about three games with travis I decided I had played enough pool so I just sat and watched the girls. They decided to move it into the concert hall eventualy so I followed, mostly because they were using my stero and I dont want them breaking it or anything.

It was fun to watch them dance, well ok, its fun to watch Karina dance. Marcy isn't as good but thats because she wasn't a drill team captin. After they got done, I let them listen to Come What May off of my moulin rouge cd and karina loved it. She even wants to do a dance to it. I was like ok :) I dont know if it will ever happen, but she can try. I think she was the only one who really connected with the song like I do. Everyone else kinda made fun of it, but I know what that song stands for and how much it means to me. Thankfully there may be one person who agrees with me.

Next we watched a really bad horror movie called Jeepers Creepers. Everyone thought the movie sucked besides Karina who was to busy screaming and digging her head into Marcys arm. Then after the movie, me and travis played super nintindo in Linda's room untill we went back up to Karina's where we had to watch....CENTER STAGE!!!! AHHHH!!! Oh well.

Over all it was a good night though.

Thank God for friends

Well, the week is progressing slowly but Im still having fun. Thank god for Fran, Karina, and Marcy. If I'm not hanging out with them I'm finding out a way to hang out with them. We've eaten together everyday so far and we always hang out during the day.

Today me, marcy, and karina went down into the practice mods to sing songs. Well, it turned into them dancing and me just playing by my self. After a while i stoped playing and just watched them dance for a while. We decided since we didn't have anything to do, why not check out the concert hall and dance. So, I got my stereo, marcy got some cds and a tape, and they continued to make up a dance to Boyz II Mens song "Mo Town Philly." It was surprisingly good. I even gave a suggestion for a move which they both really liked. After that Marcy taught us how to dance samba and reagae. It was so fun!

Then we all decided to go to dinner at Maple since our cafeteria wont open until monday. Then after a while, we walked back and played pool. Karina and marcy left to go swing dancing with college life in downtown dallas so after pool i got really bored and just went to my room. I couldn't take just sitting there so I played piano for an hour and decided to pay Fran a visit. We watched Liar Liar which was still just as funny as the first time I saw it.

So, like I said before... Thank God for friends.

One last blast

Tonight was a good night. I got to go hang out with two of my best friends, Morgan and Vickie. First, me and vickie went to morgans and hung there until we decided that we were gonna go to Fun Fest and bowl. Morgan kicked both of our butts...we even had the bumber sides up too!! I cant believe I got beat by a 15 year old girl lol. Oh well. We played alot of games too.

Ice hockey was the best. It was me vs both of them. I would of won if it hadn't kept sending out 4 pucks at once. There is no way I can defend more than one puck at a time with only one hand. I even injured my self too. I hit my thumb on the corner of the goal and pulled the nail back a little. It bleed for a few moments but it stoped after I put some toilet paper on it. We played twice and I lost both times. So over all, the games didn't go so well.

After that, we went back to vickie's and hung out for a while, but morgan had to be home at 11 so cuz she has church tomorrow, so we only staied for about 30min. It was still a good time.

I'm glad I got to see morgan before I leave for school tomorrow. I really miss talking to her and hanging out with her.

One the way home, after we droped off morgan, vickie asked me a strange question. She said, "do you think you and morgan will ever be more than friends?" I was kinda stunned for a second, but I thought about it, and said that we are two different people heading in two different directions, so unless its fate or something, there's no way. Kinda sad, I know, but life is sad sometimes.

Well, UNT, here I come.

Yes... another song

The Way You Make Me Feel - Michael Jackson

Hey pretty baby with the high heels on
You give me fever
Like I've never, ever known
You're just a product of loveliness
I like the groove of your walk,
Your talk, your dress
I feel your fever
From miles around
I'll pick you up in my car
And we'll paint the town
Just kiss me baby
And tell me twice
That you're the one for me

The way you make me feel
You really turn me on
You knock me off of my feet
My lonely days are gone

I like the feelin' you're givin' me
Just hold me baby and I'm in ecstasy
Oh I'll be workin' from nine to five
To buy you things to keep you by my side
I never felt so in love before
Just promise baby, you'll love me forever more
I swear I'm keepin' you satisfied
'Cause you're the one for me

I never felt so in love before
Promise baby, you'll love me forevermore
I swear I'm keepin' you satisfied
'Cause you're the one for me...

The way you make me feel

(this one's for you Morgan)

Long Time

I know its been a long time since I wrote in this, but with christmas and new years I hardly have alot of time to just sit and type lately.

Christmas was great this year. I got a laptop!! I had no idea I was even gonna get it. Its a used IBM ThinkPad that we bought from my brother's friends sister. Its slow as hell, but I shouldn't be complaining, i mean, it is a laptop.

New years was cool too. I went to Travis' house and then we spent the night at his friends house. His friends were pretty cool and his friend's older sister was drop dead gorgeous! She was waring this tight long sleve shirt...simply amazing. After we woke up, we headed back to Travis' and hung for a while. We just played video games and talked about school and stuff.

I cant wait to get back to school. I wanted to move back in on Sunday, but it depends on when Mr. Sullivan is going to want me to start working at my highschool.

Speaking of which, still no word from Morgan or Brenna. I guess I'm gonna have to go pay Morgan a visit with vickie tomorrow or something. I'd like to go see her before she goes back to school on monday. As for Brenna, I guess I'll just have to wait till school starts to talk to her again. Oh well.

New Years Resolution: Dont make D's on report card, Make college of music, get girl friend.