A friend told me tonight that I shouldn't hold stuff back in here. I dont know, sometimes I do because I know certain people may be reading it, mainly girls, so I tend to not talk about my girl situation much, unless it pertains to Angelica or someone who I'm pretty sure doesn't read this. Sometimes I don't talk about it because I know that what I think about saying is just a spur of the moment idea or thought that may turn out to be nothing more than just an infatuation at the time or I know that if she were to find out about me having a crush on her then it would just destroy any kind of chance I might one day have. I think that if those girls really did think about it hard enough, they could all figure out who they are. It's not like I try to hide it much. If I want to go on a date with a girl I'm not going to lie about it and tell her we are just going as friends when I have other intentions. Take Laura for example. I had lunch with her a few times and even double dated with my roommate once. When she told me she just wanted to be friends I didn't try to back out and say, "oh well I didn't like you like that anyway." I told her well thats ok if thats what you want then ok. I didn't try to lie about it or anything.
Are there girls out there right now that I want to go on a date with? Sure. Do they know that? Maybe. But for right now I'm happy with how my girl situation is. I don't rush things anymore and I don't try to read into something I know isn't there. I don't set my standards to high and I don't settle for just any one. I'd love to have a girlfriend right now and to be able to curl up next to someone like I use to, but that time is over and new times are upon me. Only to often do I fall asleep next to my Winnie The Pooh Bear and pray that one day I'm going to wake up and he will magically have been turned into a girl. I wish things hadn't turned out the way they did with Angelica or a few of the others, but I can't change anything about that now. All I can do is look to the future and keep my eyes open and just wait for the next girl to come along and hope that I'm finally done with all the heartbreak in my life. Untill then...heres hoping...
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"On Tuesdays when it hails and snows, the feeling on me grows and grows, that hardly anybody knows, that those are these and these are those." -Winnie the Pooh.
Fear not my friend. I know you pretty well, I grew up with you after all! Any girl would be more than lucky to have a guy like you. You're doing it right, don't rush. When it happens you both will know and then...man, they're aren't words. She's there man. It's just a matter of getting there, you know it? I mean, you know me!! My wife is living proof that there's someone for everyone!! Take care my friend and keep keeping us posted! :)
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